Vision. Agnostic. Prayer

Today is a very slow day at the job. I literally have nothing to do. I'm not complaining, for once. I'm using this free time to write the vision. I've decided that this year is going to be my year. Faith is an action word. I can write all day long about the promises of God and the faith that I have. But if I'm not acting on it, those words are only words. Action is required to activate those words, which brings faith to life. Once we do that, we please God and he acts on our behalf. Hebrews 11:6 says, "but without faith it is impossible to please him."

Faith is an area that I believe we all struggle in. Trusting in something that you can not see can be hard. It's challenging enough to trust those that you see every day! I had a talk with a friend and he told me what I already know. I have faith, but I'm expecting God to "point a gun at me and shoot the blessings" into my lap. He was right.

This morning, as I was sitting at my desk, Habakkuk 2:2-3 came to mind. "Write the vision, make it plain."
I see dreams becoming a reality for people around me every day. I have the faith. Now, its time to write the vision, make it plain, pray over it, and act.
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I decided to mosey on over to one of my fav blogs. Her most recent post touched me to the core. She was releasing; talking about her fears, insecurities, and burdens. She is weighed down, struggling with depression/anxiety, and is tired. It touched me because I have been there! I felt everything that she was saying. It was almost as though I was reading one of my old posts.

The comments section is closed on that particular post. She stated that she just needed to get it out. I totally understand. Sometimes, you don't want to hear "advice." There are moments when you just need to vent. Despite all of that, I wanted to reach out to her, let her know that Jesus can take all of that away. I wanted to tell her that I've been on antidepressants and nothing changed until I let God take over.

She's not a Christian. She considers herself agnostic.

So, what do I do? Sure, I could still email her my thoughts and risk getting cussed out for "pushing my views on her" or I could email her and perhaps make some leeway with her. However, I have read other posts by her and I understand her position.

I hear the voices of those who think, "why should we as Christians back down and water down what we believe? Email her!" But its not about that. I'm going to pray for her. Prayer can go where we can not go. The prayers of the righteous availeth much. When we pray, those petitions make their way to God. He can most definitely change hearts and deliver.

So, that's just what I'll do. I'll pray for her. And if the time comes for me to literally reach out via email, God will show me and give me the go ahead.

The Prodigal Daughter... That's Me

Hello world!!

I'm back for the 347th time. Haha! As usual, I retreat when life takes twists. Because I've allowed my blog to become so visible, and my identity is no secret, I've shied away from writing about the difficulties and mistakes that I've made which could become "gossip" for some people. Nevertheless, I'm back.

During my time away, I spent a little time back in Egypt. For those of you who can decipher what exactly that means, kudos to you! To those of you who can't, just know that Egypt is the land that God brought the children of Israel out of in order to bring them to the promised land. You following me now?

In Between the Promise and the Blessing

I don't know where to begin! It's been a couple of days since I posted something meaningful on here. The past few weeks have been hard for me. I'm growing more and more in the Lord. And with that comes pain. Growing pains are no joke. Who ever coined the phrase, "no pain, no gain" knew what they were talking about.

The latest principle that God is teaching me is the element of waiting. Remember how it felt when you asked your parents for something and their response was, "just wait"? Last Wednesday, I had a temper tantrum. I briefly touched on this in my "Thankful Friday."

It's So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh outweigh the bad.... I thought we'd get to see forever, but forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road is going to lead. All I know is where we've been and what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow I hope it's worth all the wait.
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories to be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

Growing in Faith

When God speaks, there is no comma or question mark at the end of the sentence. It is declarative and ends with a period. Often times, we add question marks, semicolons, and comas to the end of what God says because we are trusting in our own understanding. God will tell us to go left; but because we don't want to, because it doesn't make sense, because it doesn't fit into the happy ending that we've concocted, we begin to question it.

Let Me Explain

I just like this pic...

My open letter to my ex was out of the blue. I rarely openly talk about him on here. If I do talk about our relationship, it's in code, wrapped up in the things that God is doing and showing me in the process.

I must say that I was completely caught off guard by his unexpected appearance in my life.

I see the ex at least twice a week. We belong to the same church. However, there are no words spoken between us. We pass one another without uttering a single word. He is invisible to me and I to him. Well, it was that way until last Tuesday.

I Worship You

Friday was another confirmation of the work of God in my life.  I'm normally very high-strung, attitudinal, and frustrated when I'm being pulled in 10 different directions; literally! But on this day, I felt a calmness in me.  There was an unusual peace. I know that it was God.

Every since "me and mine" broke up, there has been an almost eerie peace around me. Even on the morning after the break-up happened, I felt a sense of calm. I didn't cry until I got to work and was re-telling the story to a close friend.  Those tears were natural tears felt from the pain of my flesh losing something that has been a part of it for so long.  But deep down inside, there has been a refreshing sense of stillness.

Trust

I'm not really motivated to write at the moment. I have A LOT to say, I however am not sure how I want to go about presenting the information that is in this brain of mine.

I'm going through a test... process... life!

I do know that if I go through it correctly this time, it will stop coming around. I'm ready for the next phase in my life. I'm tired guys.

Trust. Trust. Trust. That 5 letter word has never been more real or true to me than now.

So, I shall leave you with a Bible verse that is getting me through and words from one of my favorite songs:

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3: 5-6

"Just knowing Jesus is worth it all. To rest on His promises is worth it all. I will go where He leads - trust Him and obey. Just to know Jesus is worth it all."

Obedience is Better

"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you." Isaiah 26:3

 

I'm not going to bore you with drawn out details. But I will say this, when God speaks, listen to Him and TRUST Him. A lot of times, the command that God gives you doesn't make since. In my situation, it made no sense. I listened to God the first time. Then, the second time, I gave in and went with what I wanted. I was warned numerous times, but chose to ignore it. But you know what? Because I've decided to trust Him, I have a peace that really surpasses understanding. It's crazy. And I'm so thankful because He could've easily chosen not to be here with me through this situation. I thank God that He is faithful and not like man. I clearly didn't listen to him when He told me through my spiritual leaders and His own Word to keep moving. Even still, after dismissing Him and choosing to go with my "feelings", He has shown me that He is in control and that He is involved. He is even involved in the INTRICATE details of the matter. That blows my mind.

 

How can someone be so loving and faithful? :) It makes me smile.

 

Trust God today with WHATEVER it is that you are going through. He will NEVER steer you wrong. Keep your eyes on Him. Keep your focus on Him.

 

The enemy is crafty and will do what he can to lure you away from the command and the promise that God has given to you. This is why you must remain in prayer and remain connected to God.

 

The energy that you put into being in-tune with that person that you are in love with is the same way that we need to strive to remain connected to God. This world is against us. Every minute, there are visual baits that lure and tempt us. If you're not connected spiritually, you'll fall into the temptation to negate what the Lord has shown you. Before you know it, you've gone left field, your spiritual life is a mess, and you're wondering what went wrong.

 

Obedience. It's better than sacrifice. I did my own thing, and in it I was unhappy and spiritually drowning.

 

I've tried and tested the scripture, 1 Samuel 15:22. Now, I can truly and honestly say that God is faithful. His ways are not are ways. His thoughts are higher than ours.

 

Trust Him. =)

Realization #2

"Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall."

Proverbs 16:18