Every since "me and mine" broke up, there has been an almost eerie peace around me. Even on the morning after the break-up happened, I felt a sense of calm. I didn't cry until I got to work and was re-telling the story to a close friend. Those tears were natural tears felt from the pain of my flesh losing something that has been a part of it for so long. But deep down inside, there has been a refreshing sense of stillness.
Since the break-up, God has revealed himself to me so clearly. It's as though the blindfolds have been removed from my eyes. Each day, God shows me that His hand is on me. He is involved in the intricate details of my life. He has answered my prayers. I would cry and ask the Lord to be with me because I knew that I couldn't handle this situation without Him. I needed to feel him and know without a shadow of a doubt that He is with me. There is no way that I could walk with my head held high without the Lord. Absolutely none!
God has done that and so much more! He held me in His arms. He has covered me with His presence. He has spoken into my life and then did me one better by confirming what was spoken to me!
He did all of that to let me know that He is with me. I am in His will and have no reason to fear. God's hand is on my life and I will walk in confidence knowing this.
Do you understand how refreshing it is to be led by the One who created everything?
On Wednesday night, as I was at the altar, I saw myself walking, unable to clearly see in the midst of the darkness. However, I had one arm slightly raised in the air. God had my hand and was leading me. To know that God; the creator of everything; Alpha and Omega; the beginning and the end, the Great I Am, is leading me takes away all doubt- especially about this situation.
Romans 8:28 says that, "all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose." God said that he predestined me to be His child (Romans 8:29-30, Ephesians 1:3-6) and that the plans that He has for my life are good, not evil (Jeremiah 29:11). Knowing all of that, I can't help but to stop fighting His will. I can't help but to submit. I can't help but to give Him ALL the praise!! He loves me. It's a humbling realization.
What's even better is that God is no respecter of persons (Acts 10:34). This means that He will do the same for you. God loves you so much. You and I are the apple of His eye; we are His children. And because He is such a good God, there is no good thing that He will withhold from us who love Him and obey His commandments. (Psalm 84:11).
God has intricately crafted the journey of my life so that all roads lead to Him. For this, I am truly happy.
My desires are changing (Psalm 37:4). My attitude is changing. My fears are disappearing. My love and adoration for Him is growing. There is no way that I could've changed these things; especially not in this short amount of time. It's all because I am yielding to His will. It's not by power, nor by might. It's by God's spirit. (Zechariah 4:6). We can't change ourselves through our own power. We need His Holy Spirit.
Am I perfect? By no means at all! Do I still make mistakes? I certainly do. The difference though is that now, I am immediately made aware of them by the conviction of the Holy Spirit. I immediately repent. Before, I really didn't care that much. My excuse was, "this is how I am."
I could go on and on. However, for the sake of time and my hand (lol), I am going to cut this short and end it with the bottom line:
God has been so good to me. He has carried me, comforted me, loved on me and raised me up when I could barely lift my head. He is a keeper and a healer. From this point on, I am 100% souled out. No turning back (Isaiah 43:19).
1 comment:
This is absolutely beautiful! I'm so happy how God is and keeps transforming you into the woman He has called you to be! Thanks for sharing, and I truly look forward to seeing you soon. Be blessed Tasha!
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