Suicide

I'm Walking

On Saturday, I got in my car to run some errands. I turned on 104.1 and got a nice dose of good music. The beat was hot. The melody was catching. The vocals were on point. And to add the cherry on top of the icing on the cake, the message had substance.

Mary Mary has a new single out. It's called, "Walking." This is my song! It's my theme for the last stretch of this year! It sounds like CeCe Peniston meets 2010. I know that's a weird combination, but you have to hear it. Their album is set to drop February 2011. Ahhhh! Why can't it come sooner?

I am a lover of music. When I became serious about the Lord, I wondered how I was going to ever give up my beloved Jay-Z, Three Six Mafia, Beyonce, and the rest. (Yes, I said Three Six Mafia. I'm from Alabama..... Don't ask questions.) But as time went by, my desire to listen to those things quickly dwindled. I do still listen to some secular music. It is not ALL bad. I still think that Jay-Z is #1 in his game. I still adore Beyonce's vocals. And at times, if I catch my little sisters playing some Be, I will stop and do a dance with them, all in fun. However, my world doesn't revolve around that music anymore.

I'm Walking

On Saturday, I got in my car to run some errands. I turned on 104.1 and got a nice dose of good music. The beat was hot. The melody was catching. The vocals were on point. And to add the cherry on top of the icing on the cake, the message had substance.

Mary Mary has a new single out. It's called, "Walking." This is my song! It's my theme for the last stretch of this year! It sounds like CeCe Peniston meets 2010. I know that's a weird combination, but you have to hear it. Their album is set to drop February 2011. Ahhhh! Why can't it come sooner?

I am a lover of music. When I became serious about the Lord, I wondered how I was going to ever give up my beloved Jay-Z, Three Six Mafia, Beyonce, and the rest. (Yes, I said Three Six Mafia. I'm from Alabama..... Don't ask questions.) But as time went by, my desire to listen to those things quickly dwindled. I do still listen to some secular music. It is not ALL bad. I still think that Jay-Z is #1 in his game. I still adore Beyonce's vocals. And at times, if I catch my little sisters playing some Be, I will stop and do a dance with them, all in fun. However, my world doesn't revolve around that music anymore.

Already Here

Favorite.....

We watch and we wait Lord we anticipate…the moment, you choose to appear.

We worship we praise until there’s no debate, and we recognize you're already here.

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hal-le-lu-jah

Hallelujah… you're already here. Hallelujah…you're already here.

Oh God.

We watch and we wait Lord we anticipate…the moment, you choose to appear.

We worship we praise until there’s no debate, and we recognize you're already here.

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hal-le-lu-jah

Hallelujah… you're already here. Hallelujah…you're already here.

Oh God.

Hallelujah… Hallelujah

You’re here

The balm for my wounded soul you’re here, God, because you choose to make us whole.

The Night Time is the Right Time....

I love the Cosby Show and I love Ray. Great combo....

White Picket Dreams

So, I've had this song on repeat (via Youtube, mind you) all night. I love it. It's by Solange Knowles. I'm not a huge fan- yet, lol. I say yet because I tend to dislike the artists who end up becoming my favs. Nice song. I like the lyrics. I love the vocals. And the music itself is awesome: harmonious and melodic.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

If I Could Date a Song...

It would be this one: "So Beautiful" by Musiq Soulchild. I ABSOLUTELY adore this song. I LOVE it. I listen to it and I just completely lose all senses. Like, really? This song is just.... AHHH! I can't explain it. The words. The music. The instruments. The sensuality. The love.

My roommate and I got into it just a few minutes ago about who was dating the song. LOL! I told her that I was going to do a blog post about the song that I'm dating. And she said, "I'm sorry. I'm dating it too!" LOL! And II told her that she could have the other version. I don't like the video version because it cuts out the beautiful intro and the jazzmental near the end. Yes, I made that word up. Anywho, listen to the song, close your eyes, and enjoy.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

You really can't get the real feal for the song with computer speakers because you can't hear his adlibs/breathing in the background.... AAHHHH! It makes me just melt. Like, listening to this song makes me feel better than any man has ever made me feel. That's a dang shame, huh?

Guilty Pleasure

I have a love affair with music. I call it a love affair because of the views of my church and a lot of the people that I'm around. Secular music is the devil! Watch what you put into your temple! I agree to an extent. Not all secular music is "the devil". Sure, I can see how listening to Teddy P. or Maxwell can make one want to call up their significant other and get it poppin. And I definitely know from experience that Lil Jon can make you want to jump on a trifling hater and pull all her hair out feel a little hostile.

I used to be a Three 6 Mafia chick. The Unbreakable's was my favorite album. If you know anything about them, you know that the subject matter of all of their songs is: sex, weed, money, sex, more weed, more money... oh and taking the charge. And I used to LOVE IT! But now, I know that those things aren't in my best interest. And there is nothing Christ like about any of that. So, I don't listen to it.

My problems arise when their is a tight beat or melody. I love music. Maybe I just need to get me some instrumentals or something. Because if a song has a tight beat, I will usually find some way to justify me listening to it. As long as the lyrics aren't way out there, then I'll probably nod my head to it.

With that being said, these are my guilty pleasures at the moment. None of them have horrible lyrics. The fact that some of these songs are arguably crap is why I call them my guilty pleasures.

1. DIVA- Beyonce

Now, I have NO CLUE what she is talking about. I get that a "diva is a female version of a hustler. Of a hustler. Of a, of a hustler." But what is she saying? Out the blue she says, "tell me something. Where your boss at? Where my ladies up in here that like to talk back?" WHAT?!?

When I first heard it, I hated it. But then, I listened to it a second time. And that pulsating A Mili like beat got me. And it was over. I LOVE the way the bass pulsates in the background with that kick drum... AH! I turn it up really loud in my car and just ride. I'm so ashamed.

2. Heartless- Kanye West

"How could you be so Dr. Evil? You're bringing out a side of me that I don't know." I LOVE IT! Once again, its the beat. It's the drums and then the melody on top of the drums.... man o man. I have to listen to it at least once a day. I think the video is pretty hot too. Kanye is a really creative guy. I want to know how they made that video. What type of animation is that? I need to go do some research. Research=Wikipdeia. =)

3. Wanderland (album)- Kelis

I've always been a fan of Kelis. I first heard of her my junior year of high school. Jason put me on her. I immediately went and bought her first album and was hooked. I have loved her and the Neptunes ever since.

I guarantee that NONE of you have ever heard of this album. Wonderland was not released in the US. But I got my hands on it. It's the Neptunes at their finest. Kelis sings over classic Chad and Pharrell beats. Pharrell is heard throughout the album along with Clipse before they even had a hit. I love the music. It's mellow, melodic, and far out there.

I need to do a list of my guilty pleasures. I'll leave it at that for now. I'm going to go put my Wanderland album on my computer here at work so that I don't have to keep bringing the CD in. =)

Lie To Me, But Please Don't Leave

I have a love affair with music. I am no respecter of genre. If it's something I can feel, then I'll listen to it. Luckily in my almost 26 25 years of living, I've been exposed to different cultures and a mixture of different people that have given me an ample dosage of all types of music. One of my favorite songs is "Strong Enough" by Sheryl Crow. That song... I just feel it all down on the inside. And I love it so much because it describes me to a T.

Are you strong enough to be my man? Yes, there are things that we must change about ourselves to help the relationship. But there are also things about me that make me the fullcomplexity that I am.

And it begs the question,

"Are you strong enough to be my man?"

God, i feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage i cannot fight
I'd be the
last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way i am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise i'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't
leave

I have a face i cannot show
I make the rules up as i go
It's try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When i've shown you that i just don't care
When i'm throwing punches
in the air
When i'm broken down and i can't stand
Will you be man enough
to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise i'll believe
Lie to me
But
please don't leave

My Wish List

I l-o-v-e music. Secular and Gospel. This ruffles the feathers of some. And I don't think that we should listen to any old thing. Some stuff is absolutely ridiculous and I don't want that nonsense in my head. But I know that I will never give up ALL secular music. Not going to happen. And if you have a problem, then click that button at the top right of the window with the "X" on it. =)

Q-Tip's new album: The Renaissance:: I've always loved his music, solo and with A Tribe Called Quest. "Let's Ride" was my fav. Yall remember that? His sound is always so refreshing! His latest single, "Getting Up" is my jam. I love the piano on the track. Not to mention that he is talking about loving his woman.

Feelings that should never end And you respect me like a friend But love me like your man No other could contend

I like to watch everybody gravitate towards you Your magnetic presences make them come thru The same way you got them you got me too

The Foreign Exchange:: I've NEVER heard of them before. But I am so glad I stumbled across them. And they've been out for a minute too. They have a song out called "Daykeeper." I like. Very mellow. Melodic. Vocals are tight. His voice!!!! The album is called, "Leave It All Behind". It's reminiscent of Dwele and Raheem. More Dwele though. I LOVE IT!

Why dont you stay here with me I pray that our morning won't leave Let me keep you Then youll see Dont hide the truth from yourself Its you that i'll love and protect Let me keep you here with me

Ahh, Musiq:: His new album is entitled, "On My Radio." Honestly, I'm not feeling the first single. I don't get it. Who is he trying to appeal to? It's so left field for him. I mean, change is good. It worked for Mr. Legend on "Green Light." But I'm not feeling "Radio" at all. It sounds like he tried too hard. Booo. BUT, "So Beautiful," which is the song that you hear playing right now is MY JAM! AAHH! I love it! Now, this is what I call good Musiq. I'm iffy about his entire album, but I will definitely dish out .99 cents to get that one track off of Itunes.

The music comes in all soft and seductive. And then he croons:

You're my baby, my lover, my lady All night you make me want you It drives me crazy i feel like you were made just for me babe Tell me if you feel the same way cuz it just feels so right I dont wanna waste no time If i had to choose I know im gone always choose to be with you

Girl dont you know you're so beautiful I wanna give all my love to you girl Not
just tonight but the rest of your life I wanna be always here by your side

I see a trend. All of these songs are about a man loving his woman and wanting to be with his woman. No games. No foolishness. No other woman. It's just you and me baby. That's how its supposed to be. =)

It's The God in Me

You think I'm so fresh. You think I'm so clean. You think I'm so sweet. What is
it you think you see? It's the God in me.

Sometimes I do want to cuss you out. Sometimes I want to run you off the road. But what you get is a beautiful young woman who is going through the same trials and tribulations as you. However, I'm learning everyday with a smile on my face. You think you see me, but trust, it's the God in me.

This is my JAM!!!! OMG! Oh yeah, the song is called, "God in Me" by Mary Mary.

If I Were A Boy

If the tables were turned, how would you feel if I popped up with gifts, your favorite dish, kisses and hugs? How would you feel if I held you tight, talked with you all night? How would you feel if I asked you out on a date, made dinner, sat with you and ate? How would you feel if after all that I tell you that you're nothing more than a friend, who I happen to do other things with? That things could never go back to where they were. So, what in the world was all of that for?

I'ma Stay Saved

The hardest thing for young Christians to do is live a Holy life. In other words, it's hard for us Christians to be Christians! There are so many temptations, distractions, and illusions that we have to fight on the daily. I know for myself, all of the above ring true.

When I started my walk with God, for real for real, I was still dealing with situations from my past. Instead of just walking away, I would find myself trying to carry the past into my present. That never works, especially when your past is anything but Holy. Doing that resulted in a lot of crying and repenting at the altar. But because God is so merciful, I'm still here today. And I can say that I have truly grown.

Now a days, I find that it's the little things that are hard for me to be obedient about.

Respect your mother, regardless of how you think she did you. *sigh* That one is hard. Sometimes she just gets on my nerves!!!

Watch that temper. *sigh* But when I feel like you're not listening and just waiting for me to finish just to disprove my point, I wanna CUSS YOU OUT!!! (whew, I think I need to go pray about that one right now....)

Get off the internet at work. *sigh* But this job is the worst and they don't pay me well anyway!

Don't get angry and pop off at the mouth. *sigh* I know he saw me trying to get over! And why would you pull out in front of me going 35 when clearly I'm doing 65?!?!?

See, those things God wants to take away. We are supposed to be filled with the fruits of the spirit. If we were, we would bear good fruit like love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Not jealousy, anger, resentment, vindictiveness, or hatred.

Canton Jones has a song out called, "Stay Saved". I love that song! He said, lol:

I'ma stay saved
When I'm driving on 285 and somebody cut me off and flip me the bird
Im'a stay saved
When I'm playin ball and they foulin ya'll and I hit the floor get up dont
say a word
I'm a stay saved
When I'm walkin through the mall with my wife and somebody still attemptin
to catch her eye
I'ma stay saved
When I go to the refrigerator and somebody done ate my sweet potatoe pie!

I'm a stay saved
aint goin start fussin
I'm a stay saved
aint goin start cussin
I'm a stay saved
Even though I'm hot as fire, I'm gonnna love you anyhow

Anywho.... Pray and ask God to fill you with His love and joy. Ask Him to reveal to you those areas that you need work on. That way, you see the junk that's on the inside. Give it over to God and watch the change. Pretty soon, you'll bear nothing but those fruits. =)

Go Through...Fall

We all go through.

We all have situations that hit us and knock us completely off track. Sometimes these problems arrive out of the blue. Sometimes we create the situation. I'm in a situation. I'm in a season. I get frustrated. I feel hopeless at times. Sometimes I get angry. Sometimes I feel alone. But every time I try to complain or cry, I'm reminded to look up.

Today is October 1st.

This year is just about over with. Where did it go??? 2008 was declared "The Year of New Beginnings". Last New Year's Eve, my Pastor talked about all of the wonderful things that would happen in 2008 and how we were going to step into a new beginning. I just knew my new beginning was going to be a husband, maybe a new job, and some money!

Lol! But 2008 didn't quite go that way.

Instead, I found myself becoming more and more involved in God's Kingdom. I've never gone to church this much in my life! Between Sunday school, church services and ministry, all of my free time is spent at my church. I've even moved closer to the church and further away from my job. That sounds backwards, huh?

But you know what? It makes perfect sense. My life, my entire being is in the Lord. I am nothing without Christ. He is the reason that I have a job. He is the reason that I have a car. He is the reason that I'm able to formulate these thoughts and share them with you. Jesus is the reason. And the least I could do is worship Him and help grow His Kingdom.

I'm single. I don't have a family to tend to. My focus and yours as well should be God's work. Right now, Jesus is my boo. Lol! And when He sees fit to join me with my hubby, He'll do it.

I was becoming weary of the whole "New Beginning". Lord, when I am going to get mine? But you see, I have it. I've become closer to God than I've ever been. I'm still not where He wants me to be. But I'm no where near where I used to be. My life is in God and I finally realize it. Through my situation, I am learning to depend on Him more than I depended on my own parents. My faith is growing. My praise and worship is becoming real. I'm becoming stronger in Him.

Yes, I complain sometimes. At times I feel tired. But this is all for Him. And I know that I will be blessed because of it. God has me. Blessed assurance.

In high school, we did this exercise that was supposed to build our trust in one another. There would be two people. One person was to turn his back to his partner. He was then supposed to cross his hands over his chest, close his eyes, and fall. This was the hardest thing for us to do. Even though we knew our partner was back there waiting to catch us, we were still hesitant to just let go and fall.

That's how we are with God. God has the whole world in His hands. If His eye is on a tiny sparrow, you can be sure that His eye is on you. All we have to do is let it all go, trust God, and fall. But we're afraid. We doubt. Well, what if I let go and this happens? What about my bills? What about rent? How will I eat? But I don't know how to....

NO!

Fall. Let it all go and fall. God's cushion of love, grace, and mercy will catch you and hold you so tight. You'll wonder why it took you so long to trust Him.

Today I declare that I'm walking running deeper into this new beginning. I'm going to run until I run smack into God. I will close my eyes, turn my back to this world and fall.

"The Sound"

Yall!! (Yes, I meant yall. That's the AL coming out. *smiles*) I listened to Mary Mary's new Cd, "The Sound" on Rhapsody. OMG! Mary Mary made their mark as being a Gospel duo with a more secular sound. They incorporated R&B, Jazz, Hip Hop, and even swing into their music.

This latest album continues in that tradition. The album has a sound all its own. The sound ranges from 50s r&b to present day Hip Hop. They even got David Banner on "Superfriend." One standout track is "God in Me" featuring Kierra "Kiki" Sheard. Wow. The flow on the verses sounds extremely similar to The Dream's flow on "I Love Your Girl". They even have the Zapp/T-pain voice thingy going on. You know I liked that... hehe...

Then you have tracks like "Dirt" with an extremely smooth, serene sound reminiscent of smooth soul from the 70s. "It Will All Be Worth It" is the last track on the album and brings everything back home. This track sounds more traditional than the rest of the songs on the album; they belt out and testify that its all worth it and that everything will be all right. And I promise I heard Rance Allen on there. You know him! The guy from the song, "Something about the name Jesus" with Kirk Franklin...

All in all, if you're looking for Gospel music with the classic mass choir singing in the background, this album is NOT for you. If you are progressive, love a good beat, and like to move all the while praising our Lord, then this is definitely the album for you.

Friday Ramblings

• I found out last night that it takes money to make money.


• The enemy isn't playing games. He is on his grind. I confessed some things to God. And no lie, two days later, I was a hot mess. The exact opposite was happening.


• Solve this equation: "I like you" + "You like me"= ?
  a. we like one another so are willing to work through anything
  b. we should just be stubborn and prideful and not open up
  c. let's just do the dang thing and be together
  d. yeah, I like you, but it's just not enough


• I'm so feeling my hair right about now. It is just growing and the curls are just popping


• Why do people feel like they have to prove their level of spirituality? I don't have to quote Bible versus or speak in church vernacular to prove myself to anyone. The way I live my life speaks volumes. That urks me. It makes me want to end the conversation when people do that. Anyone can quote the Bible or a gospel song. Even Satan knows the Word. Come on now....


• Why do we delete numbers from our phones knowing that we're gonna find a way to get that number again and text/call the person?


• Why did I talk to my ex for a good minute yesterday.... but not about us! He has become like a big brother/best friend to me. That's crazy, huh?


• I see that you take my kindness for a weakness, my compassion for meekness, and my quietness for naiveness.


• If you want me to open up, attacking me isn't the way to do it. You have to give a little to get a little.


• On the way to work this morning I heard Make Me A Believer by Luther and Fortunate by Maxwell. Man... Those two songs make me......But the video to Fortunate! lol! It still creeps me out. I don't get it... And why at the end do we only see that woman's feet in the bathroom? It's just creepy....

Ne-Yo....Pleasantly Surprised

Oh, Ne-Yo. I admit that I was going to sleep on your album. I wasn't even going to give it a second look. But today, I took a chance and listened. And I am highly pleased. It sounds like nothing that is out right now, which is a good thing. It's not typical R&B. It's got a European, Michael Jackson circa Off the Wall, classic, Ne-Yo sound. I like it. Ne-Yoism. Yeah, that's what I'll call it. I get tired of hearing the same ol' stuff. But this is refreshing.

Closer sounds like something that you hear when you walk in Express. They always have that euro-beat music playing all loud, drowning out any and all thoughts.

I have to listen to it again to get a real feel for it. But upon first listen of the album, it's something that I can listen to all the way through. Way to go Ne-Yo!!!

"So You Can Cry" is one of my off the top favorites. He said, "I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today so you can cry." Ne-Yo!!!! That is hot right there. His voice was so beautiful on that track. He made my face squinch up like something smelled bad. lol! That's my, "Um! That sounds good" face.

Ok. That's my 1.5 cents. Going back to work now...

OK... I had to come back and add this: I'll be your boyfriend till this song goes off??? Really??? What foolery is that? *shakes head* I still like the album though.

No Looking Back

Philippians 3:13-14

Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do,
forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things
which are before,
I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling
of God in Christ Jesus.

What's your stronghold? What thing has you in bondage? It may not be every day of your life. But what situation, addiction, thought, mentality, or person causes you to struggle? What in your life can't you seem to get over or let go of? What is holding you back from being who God has called you to be? These are all strongholds.

In the dictionary, a stronghold is defined as, "a fortified place or a fortress". In the old testament, a stronghold was a fortified place used as a means of protection. In the new testament, a stronghold is defined as, "arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God." 2 Corinthians 10:3-5

Satan starts working on building strongholds early on in our lives. He is a crafty little pesk. He also takes his time. Think about the strongholds in your life. Chances are, the root of the problem began years ago. You may not be able to trust because of something someone did to you 10 years ago. You may be addicted to something because of one encounter that you had years ago. Your way of thinking, your thought process, may be a little off because of something that happened in your childhood or simply because of the way you were brought up.

These things take root in our lives and prevent us from moving forward. God can't use us the way He wants to if we have junk blocking our flow.

My stronghold was my mind. There are things that happened to me and situations that I went through that had completely altered the way I thought about myself and my world. I was seeing the world through false lenses. And because I saw the world the way that I wanted to see the world, because I saw myself the way I wanted to see myself, it kept me from realizing who I truly am.

I would find myself in situations that weren't right. And instead of just dealing with it the right way and going to God, I would break my neck trying to make it go my way- because that's the way I saw things. I would worry myself to death! God was telling me, "my child, let go." But I would hang on to the situation with all my might- kicking, screaming, crying- continuing to dig myself into a deeper mental hole. My mind was always all over the place. I let people easily get to me. I didn't have a sense of who I was. And the devil played off of that- for years.

I tried to do the unspeakable a few years back. And its because I didn't know who I was. My mind was messed up. Satan had it out for me. And lately, I found myself back in the same situations, having the same thoughts, feeling the same way.

But let me tell you, because my God is an awesome God, He heard my cry. He saw me when I got down on my knees in full submission to Him. He felt me lay all of my issues out in front of Him. And He gently lifted me up and renewed my mind. God took situations that were meant for my bad, even those that I meant for evil, and worked it out for my good.

You have to recognize the strongholds in your life, present them to God, tell Him that you are a mess and you don't want to be this way. And I guarantee that He will make a way. He will pull you out of whatever it is that is holding you in bondage. You just have to believe.

And once he does it, you CAN'T LOOK BACK. There is no looking back.

Damita Haddon has a song out called, "No Looking Back." She says:

I am leaving this place now
Letting go of all my fears
Saying goodbye to the memories I hold dear
I can finally breathe again
It's a new day, farewell past
As I close this chapter
I say free at last

I made up my mind, there's no turning back
The past is behind me, there's no looking back
I'm looking forward, not behind
I made a decision to give You my life
And there's no looking back.....

That's real right there. Recognize the crap in your life- the things that you know aren't right, the things that are grieving your spirit, the things that you can't shake- and ask God to release you. Ask God to examine you and wash you anew. He can and He will. He did it for me.

Last Night...

... was an extremely peaceful night for me. I came home from work looked at some jobs online, and then went upstairs, showered, ate, and twisted my hair back. I had "The Original Quiet Storm on 96.3" playing in the background. My lights were dim, but not too dark for me to function. It was really nice.

Listening to all of those songs got me to thinking about love and how easy it used to be. When did it become hard? When did it become about what other people thought? When did it become about everyone else's feelings? What about the feelings of the two people involved? It used to be so easy....

Anywho... I have to make me a CD. Those songs hit the spot! Some were oldies and some I had never heard before. But of course, today, if you're not talking about money, sex, or women with Lil Wayne and T-Pain on the track, then your music will never get heard by the mainstream. You have to wait patiently for "The Original Quiet Storm on 96.3" (And you have to say it with a deep sensual voice like the guy does. hehe....) to come on.

India Arie has this song called "Good Mourning". It woke me up out of my sleep. (Yes, I fell asleep with the radio on). Her voice, the music- it was so beautiful! And on top of that, it seemed as though she was snooping in on my life when she wrote it. Why have I been sleeping on India?

And then "If Only For One Night" by Charles Earland & Najee. I love me some Najee. And that song- OH!!! I love it! I didn't know the song was 6 freaking years old?!?

And "No Rhyme, No Reason" by George Duke featuring Rachell Ferrell. That is a classic! Please, if you have never heard this song, go find it.

Bobby Caldwell- "What You Wont Do For Love" I've loved this song since I was a baby!

Frankie Beverly & Maze!! I could go on and on...

Anywho... It's cloudy outside. Just the way I like it. I'm still in my lazy, chilled out, mode. I wish I was at home, curled up on the couch doing absolutely nothing but listening to my smooth jazz/r&b and watching the candle's flicker.

*sigh*


"No Rhyme, No Reason"

Can't Believe It

I don't know how I heard this song. I think I was flipping stations in my car. The music caught my ear. So, I stopped and listened. Turns out its T-Pain. Go figure... The song is about how good this woman makes him feel.

She "makes the people say yeah."

Whatever that means.

He then says "I can't believe it. She all on me. I think she wants me." haha lol! That cracks me up because if I were him, I wouldn't believe it either. Ok. That was mean. I take that back. hehe....

Anywho...I love the music. Just give me the instrumental to ride out to. And of course Lil Wayne has to get on the song at the end. I didn't even listen to him. He was doing something funky with his voice, slurring his words, and talking nasty. Too much for me. I'm trying to go forward....

Music takes my mind to other places; places that I have no business revisiting. And,

for as he thinketh in his heart, so is he. Proverbs 23

So, I have to keep control over my mind. That is why I choose not to listen to certain secular songs. It's the music that gets me though. I heard that first note and I was hooked.