Traces of You

I should be working on this play that I'm co-writing for church. But, my brain needs to digest some things. Alas, I shall write.

A few weeks back, Easter Sunday to be exact, my soror called me. She has been a spiritual confidant for me. She randomly IM's me or calls me about things. And the things that she has to say to me are TOTALLY random, yet on point. There is no way that she would have a clue as to what is going on in my life. It's straight from God.

The first time this happened to me was during my freshman year of undergrad. I had been battling within myself about God and His love for me. No one knew about this though. Some friends and I were sitting in the dining hall and I began to sing. Across the way from me was a guy who would try to school me on the ways of the Lord. I would go and talk to him from time to time. But anywho, about twenty minutes later, One of Gavin's friends called me into another room. He said that Gavin wanted to talk to me.

I went into that room. And Gavin began praying and telling me things. He was answering questions that I had with God. There was NO way that he knew that those were issues with me. This was my first experience with something like this- and I didn't quite know how to take it. Needless to say, God was speaking to me through him.

Fast forward 7 years and about 3 spiritual uploads later- God is using my soror to do the same thing. She called me and asked me what major changes I'd made in my life. I was confused. So naturally I said, "huh?" She asked me again. This time she said, "have you made any promises or declarations?" I immediately thought to the past Wednesday night. "Yes, I told God that I would trust Him, no matter what."

Turns out that she already knew this. And she proceeded to tell me what she knew and what the Lord told her to tell me. I'm not going to go into it. Too much information.

So, last night, I'm on the phone with another friend. She is going on and on about the bad as well as wonderful things that are happening in her life. And she attributed them all to her relationship with God- in a sense of tests and rewards.

I immediately began to wonder why I haven't seen any of my sorors words manifest in my life. I began to wonder why things are so calm for me right now. Why isn't Satan attacking me? Am I doing something wrong? Why haven't I seen any fruits? Am I not seeking hard enough?

TWO seconds before me and my friend got off the phone, my soror beeps in. We begin to talk. And because God is an "on time" God, she spoke to me and not knowingly let me know that everything is fine. Not everything is going to be instantaneous.

She used the "Polaroid metaphor" to explain it to me. She said that her pastor always talks about how nowadays, we want to take Polaroid pictures. We want to snap, shake, and get results. But God doesn't always work that way. Sometimes God requires us to take the picture, submerge it in the developing solution, and still let it hang to dry. It may take longer, the results aren't instant, but the results will last longer. Think about it- those old Polaroids that you have at home- aren't a lot of them fading?

Fast forward to this morning. I'm driving to work. I turn on the radio. "Yolanda Adam's Points of Power" was on. I caught the end of it. But I believe they were in Psalm 24. I remember her saying that we shouldn't pray and ask God for a sign. That is a sign of spiritual immaturity. She said that we should ask God for his goodness. And when you see His goodness manifested, that shows that His presence is indeed with you. I immediately thought back to my soror's phone call. She didn't know it, but God used her to let me know that I need to be still, continue to do good, and wait on Him. Don't grow weary in good deeds. When I realized his goodness and presence was with me last night, I let go a mighty "Hallelujah!" =)

God is good. I may not see anything happening. At times I feel like everything is stagnant. But I know that my prayer, worship, and sacrifice is all working together for my good. God is receiving it in the spiritual realm. I'm just waiting for my blessings to catch up and overtake me in the natural.

Praise God!