He Knocked ME Up Side My Head AGAIN!!! (maybe i'll listen this time)

So, just last night I wrote Romans 3:23. It just poured out. If you've been keeping up, then you know that I've been struggling with accepting the fact that this is where I'm supposed to be in my life right now. I'm angry because things aren't going MY way. I'm upset because I don't like the situation that I am in right now. I want to go back down south. I miss my friends. I miss my family. Blah Blah Blah. There is more, but I don't feel like putting myself out there like that tonight.

Anywho, I get on the LameBook and my old roomie had posted a note. She basically shared with us how the Lord came to her in a dream. She dreamed that she was with her boyfriend and some friends. Suddenly, vultures came and began to attack everyone. They then tried to attack her and her boyfriend shielded her body with his, trying to protect her. He then told her to go hide. She also mentioned that vultures only prey on "dead" things.

The next day, her boyfriend called her and told her that God told him that they couldn't be together. She was confused not only by this, but by her dream. She continued to ask God what her dream meant and He came to her and told her:

"So I continued to ask God about my dream. He said "D, how dare you!" "How dare you come to my door, knock, and it be opened. I give you all the desires of your heart and then you stop praising my name." "You asked me for an attractive, God-fearing man, who will understand you, accept you AND your son, love you unconditionally, etc and I give it to you and you get side tracked...how dare you." God is a jealous God! He told me what my dream meant. The vultures were preying on me not because I was dead but because my spirit was dead. Bobby was trying to protect me in my dream because that is what he was designed to do in the first place. He was directing me in the dream because that is what is supposed to happen. The man is the leader, and we must follow. Although that is a hard pill to swallow for some women, it MUST be done."

She goes on to say,

"Since God has given me a taste of what is for me, I will never make that mistake again. Nothing and no one can stop me from praising his name and walking in His light. When you don't know what to do, just stop, be still and listen. Ask God to come and get you from where you are, take you by the hand and show you what He wants you to do."

Although her situation is different, the message is the same. Don't put ANYTHING before God. He loves us so much and wants so much to provide for us. And when we don't praise Him like we should or get side tracked, He can and will take it all away. She also said,

"When God strips something out of you life, sometimes it is not permanent. Sometimes it is an eye opener to get you back on the right path towards Him. When things are not going according to YOUR plan, they are going according to God's plan."

God tells my hard headed self ALL THE TIME that He has this. He's constantly saying, "Tasha, I got this! Don't worry." But because I want my life to go the way I see it laid out in my head, I get discouraged. I'm listening Lord. I'm trying. Help me. I want to accept. I want to be patient. I want to go through whatever it is that I need to go through to get to where You are leading me.

Thank you Lord! And thanks D for that wonderful message.