11.07.2006

ROMANS 3:23

I'm scared. Point blank.
I have no clue where my life is headed.
I need some direction.
I talk to God, but hear no response.
Am I listening too hard?
Maybe I'm not listening at all.
My faith is shattered. Sad, but true.
I was once protected by his grace
But now I feel abandoned and disgraced.
I know that I've done it all to myself.
Turning my back on Him is not gonna help.
I'm secluding myself from His word and His love.

Formed by my own tears, I drown in this sea.
It's deep, dark, and abysmal you see.
I've stopped asking for help.
Won't pray when I feel the need.
I'm living my life by my own terms.

I'm gonna die by this seed that I've planted in my heart.
It's growing in my body and overpowering my mind.
It causes me to hate life itself and all who aren't blind
To the realness of the Lord and what He can do.
I don't wanna die this way.
I want to kneel down and pray.
I want to be at peace.
I want this pain to cease.
There's a spiritual war going on within me.
I'm fighting God, myself, and the enemy.
I want God to win. I want Him to take control.
I want Him to hold me in His arms and bring peace to my soul.

These words do scare me.
Because they are true.
But I'm confessing to You now Lord.
I'm asking for your forgiveness.
Please shake the demons that haunt my mind.
With light flood the darkness that makes me blind.
Make me whole again.
Jesus!
Make me new.

Make me in the likeness of You.
-Fullcomplexity

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

At least you are talking to him. . . I am still working on letting go of my issues and letting the Lord handle them.

KIM