Learning. Becoming

We had a snow storm here in northern Virginia. I've been stuck in the house since Friday. Church was cancelled today and there is no work for me tomorrow. And get this, the weather man says that more snow is headed our way on Tuesday. Oh joy! (complete sarcasm)


Being stuck in the house hasn't really bothered me all because I've devoted my energy to working on my blog. I've been playing around with HTML and photoshop- things that I used to enjoy doing but just kinda fell out of touch with. I learned two things about myself today. When I start a project, I will not stop until I finish. I have been playing around on this computer non-stop trying to get this blog done. I only take a break to eat. Seriously. It still, however, isn't done. I've changed it around three times. I think I like this layout the best. So now, I just need to spruce it up a bit. Another example of this reared its head when I went to shovel my car out of the snow. I would not stop until I finished. I don't know where this tenacity came from. Maybe I always had it? I dunno.


The second thing that I've learned about myself is that I am so very content. I'm at a point in my life where there is no drama. No friendship issues. No man issues. It feels really good. I sit back and watch my friends talk about their significant others and see them go through normal relationship issues. And I have to say that I don't miss it at all. I love waking up to me. I love not having to answer to anyone, not having to check in on anyone. Not having to share my space with anyone. Ms. Badu said it best, "the world is mine when I wake up. I don't need nobody telling me the time."


Maybe I'm content with it because I haven't found anyone with whom I want to share my space. What's funny though is that even though I am happy being single, I've been craving affection. It's not that I want a boyfriend. But sometimes, I just want to crawl on someone and let him hold me. Sometimes I just want to cuddle. I think its my hormones or something. Last night I had the craziest dream. But we'll save that for another post....


2010 has definitely been a year of becoming. I'm loving this person. I love who I am. =)


Be Blessed.