An Emotional Wreck

Am I PMSing? For the 11 years that I have had a cycle, I have been the WORST PMSer ever. I get extremely moody and emotional. However over the years, the symptoms have decreased. Lately, I'm just peachy before, during, and after my cycle.

The reason why I ask this question is because for the past two days, I have been one emotional wreck. Ok, really since Sunday. And today was the worst day. I was ANGRY and FRUSTRATED at work. I ended up storming out at lunch time. I drove to Wendy's and sat in my car and ate. That calmed me down a little. I didn't feel like hearing Gospel- well the cheesy songs that were playing- so I turned to see what was playing on 95.7Jamz. They were playing old songs from back in the day. That was cool.

I then decided to read my daily devotional and read my Bible. That was nice- (besides the fact that my heart was beating like it wanted to jump out of my chest. I was anxious for some reason.) I sat and enjoyed the sun and the warmth of my car for a good 30 minutes before I decided to drive back to work.

I'm still feeling frustrated. I turn to see what's playing on 104.1 (Gospel channel). Still cheesy. And let me clarify. Just because a song is praising the Lord does not mean I'm going to sit through it if it sounds like crap. So sue me. Or better yet, stop reading my blogs if you disagree.
(see what I mean?? I'm CRANKY!!!!) I turn back to the R&B station and that darned Usher song is playing. "Love in the Club". That has to be the DUMBEST song I've ever heard in my life.

This is what our youth are listening to. This is what makes them happy. This is what they relate to now. And it PISSES ME OFF. Anywho, back to the story...

I begin to tear up. And it gets worse. I pulled around the back of my office building where no one was and sobbed.

Confession.

I know its not PMS. It's the resurfacing of someone whom I thought I was done with. I thought I was over him. But the thing is, I feel like I am. Maybe its the "situation" that I'm not over? I really can't put my finger on it. But thinking about him makes me upset.

Every since he came to church on Sunday and got saved, I have been an absolute wreck. I'm happy for him. I praise God for it. But I've been a wreck.

I don't understand it. Maybe it all just happened around the time my cycle is supposed to start. So, that's why I'm all emotional. Too much stimuli.