Purpose

So, I was waiting on the elevator this morning with a fellow co-worker and we were conversing about how we both woke up late this morning. We laughed and joked about being tired and then reassured ourselves with the fact that tomorrow is Friday. And then, I said, "yeah, and we get to do it all over again on Monday." He then replied, "That's life." I looked straight ahead and thought to myself, "That's your life. Not mine."

I've realized that this is not what I want to do. Sure, I am happy that God blessed me with the opportunity and with a job so that I can eat, pay bills, etc. However, when I look at the broad scope of things, I don't see myself doing this forever. I love to write. I love to express myself. I love to sing. I love music. I see myself writing. I've always been a writer. Even when I was younger, I was forever writing short stories, poems. And somewhere along my journey, I lost touch with it. I began to listen to others. I let fear paralyze me. I think I can do it. I know I can do it. The first step is actually doing it.

I look at other people and I find myself almost envious of the fact that they are doing what they want to do. They're going after what is in their hearts because they WANT to. It's what makes them happy. Sadly, I'm sitting at work right now- writing. And I'm so content. I think it's my calling. God placed this in me. And it's up to me to work on it and use it to glorify Him. I can reach so many- help so many people. I already do it on a daily basis with my simple Myspace page. Just imagine the multitude of people I could reach if I really put effort into this gift that God has given me.

We constantly find ourselves looking for ourselves. "What's my purspose?" "What am I supposed to be doing?" "What's my gift?" I'm not one to preach because I'm not a preacher. But I know that when you pray to the Lord to reveal something about yourself to yourself, good or bad, He will do it.

If you're struggling trying to figure out what it is that God has for you, continue to pray about it. But hopefully you're constantly building a relationship with God. You're seeking Him. I want to be close to Him. There is so much joy and peace in being near to Him.

Matthew 6:33 tells us to "seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." It is because of Him that we live. It is because of His grace that we woke up this morning. It is because of His mercy that you are even able to read this message. So, how can we go about life trying to find our purpose and reason for being if we don't first seek the One who created us? If we don't give Him all of the glory, honor, and praise? If we don't live our lives according to His word? How will we ever become not lost?
I hope this all makes sense. Sometimes I tend to go off on tangents. Bottom line is this:
God knows your needs. He knows your wants. He knows the desires of your heart. If God said it is so, then it is so. Don't fret. Don't worry. You continue to walk your Chrisitian walk. You continue to walk and grow in faith. Remember every day that it is because of Him that you live and He will keep you. He will guide you to your purpose. God is a loving God and only wants the best for us.