Gimme a Sec...

So much is going on in my mind right now... Gonna be M.I.A. for a hot minute. I have a lot of sorting and reassessing to do. Your prayers are highly appreciated. =)

Guilty Pleasure

I have a love affair with music. I call it a love affair because of the views of my church and a lot of the people that I'm around. Secular music is the devil! Watch what you put into your temple! I agree to an extent. Not all secular music is "the devil". Sure, I can see how listening to Teddy P. or Maxwell can make one want to call up their significant other and get it poppin. And I definitely know from experience that Lil Jon can make you want to jump on a trifling hater and pull all her hair out feel a little hostile.

I used to be a Three 6 Mafia chick. The Unbreakable's was my favorite album. If you know anything about them, you know that the subject matter of all of their songs is: sex, weed, money, sex, more weed, more money... oh and taking the charge. And I used to LOVE IT! But now, I know that those things aren't in my best interest. And there is nothing Christ like about any of that. So, I don't listen to it.

My problems arise when their is a tight beat or melody. I love music. Maybe I just need to get me some instrumentals or something. Because if a song has a tight beat, I will usually find some way to justify me listening to it. As long as the lyrics aren't way out there, then I'll probably nod my head to it.

With that being said, these are my guilty pleasures at the moment. None of them have horrible lyrics. The fact that some of these songs are arguably crap is why I call them my guilty pleasures.

1. DIVA- Beyonce

Now, I have NO CLUE what she is talking about. I get that a "diva is a female version of a hustler. Of a hustler. Of a, of a hustler." But what is she saying? Out the blue she says, "tell me something. Where your boss at? Where my ladies up in here that like to talk back?" WHAT?!?

When I first heard it, I hated it. But then, I listened to it a second time. And that pulsating A Mili like beat got me. And it was over. I LOVE the way the bass pulsates in the background with that kick drum... AH! I turn it up really loud in my car and just ride. I'm so ashamed.

2. Heartless- Kanye West

"How could you be so Dr. Evil? You're bringing out a side of me that I don't know." I LOVE IT! Once again, its the beat. It's the drums and then the melody on top of the drums.... man o man. I have to listen to it at least once a day. I think the video is pretty hot too. Kanye is a really creative guy. I want to know how they made that video. What type of animation is that? I need to go do some research. Research=Wikipdeia. =)

3. Wanderland (album)- Kelis

I've always been a fan of Kelis. I first heard of her my junior year of high school. Jason put me on her. I immediately went and bought her first album and was hooked. I have loved her and the Neptunes ever since.

I guarantee that NONE of you have ever heard of this album. Wonderland was not released in the US. But I got my hands on it. It's the Neptunes at their finest. Kelis sings over classic Chad and Pharrell beats. Pharrell is heard throughout the album along with Clipse before they even had a hit. I love the music. It's mellow, melodic, and far out there.

I need to do a list of my guilty pleasures. I'll leave it at that for now. I'm going to go put my Wanderland album on my computer here at work so that I don't have to keep bringing the CD in. =)

The Best Things in Life Aren't Free

I had an epiphany.

I am where I'm supposed to be. Every single event that has taken place in my life led to this point. I'm alive. I have family. I have only an extreme few people that I really call a friend because people up here are crazy wonderful friends. I have a job. I have a car. I have a roof over my head. I have clothes to wear. I enjoy the use of all of my limbs and senses. I have a God who loves me more than anyone has or ever will love me.

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.

I believe that from this moment- right here, right now- I am going to begin to truly walk into the plan that God has for me. God said that He knows the plans that He has for me. They are good plans, not evil. (Jeremiah 29:11)

You know what's funny though? Things aren't easy right now. I am dealing with things. Money isn't where I would like it to be. I can't do all of the things that I want to do. My relationships with different people are teetering on being non-existent, mind you I was once extremely close to some of these people. Things are a bit haywire at the moment.

But I know that I have the victory. It has been promised to me. So all I have to do is go through TRUSTING and BELIEVING God's promise to me.

If God came to you and showed you who you were to be and all of the grand things that you would do, would you tell Him, "I'm good. Don't worry about it." Of course not. You'd jump right on that and believe it. "I receive it!" But what would you do if after you accepted that, He showed you all of the trials that you must go through to get to the victory?

Anything worth having is going to take time. It's going to take perseverance. It's going to take trust and faith in God. My being is in Christ. I believe that all things good for my life is in Him. So, I'm ready and willing to get in the seat, strap on my seat belt, and go for this ride. It's like riding a roller coaster. You know that the ride is about to be something crazy, but in the end, the twists and turns stop. The sudden drops and surprises cease. And you have peace.

You just have to simply trust Him.