Lie To Me, But Please Don't Leave

I have a love affair with music. I am no respecter of genre. If it's something I can feel, then I'll listen to it. Luckily in my almost 26 25 years of living, I've been exposed to different cultures and a mixture of different people that have given me an ample dosage of all types of music. One of my favorite songs is "Strong Enough" by Sheryl Crow. That song... I just feel it all down on the inside. And I love it so much because it describes me to a T.

Are you strong enough to be my man? Yes, there are things that we must change about ourselves to help the relationship. But there are also things about me that make me the fullcomplexity that I am.

And it begs the question,

"Are you strong enough to be my man?"

God, i feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage i cannot fight
I'd be the
last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way i am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise i'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't
leave

I have a face i cannot show
I make the rules up as i go
It's try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When i've shown you that i just don't care
When i'm throwing punches
in the air
When i'm broken down and i can't stand
Will you be man enough
to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise i'll believe
Lie to me
But
please don't leave

Hung-Over...Not Really

Something extremely weird is going on.

At this very moment, I am feeling something that I haven't felt in a long time: the physical side effects of being extremely drunk. Now, here comes the weird part:

I haven't had a drink in ages.

In college, my friends and I were the girls that you shook your head at. We were the chicks dancing on tables, swinging from anything remotely close to a pole, being holstered on the shoulders of random dudes when crunk Lil Jon songs came on, and drinking ourselves into an inebriated bliss. Whenever I partied that hard, I most likely ended up regurgitating all of the food and drink that I obnoxiously consumed. As a result, for the next couple of days, my insides felt like crap. I couldn't laugh hard, run, or do anything that caused the muscles in my mid- section to work.

I got sick a few days ago. I'm not sure if its the new vitamins I'm taking, the McDonald's I had on Sunday, or the dinner my beau cooked. But my body rejected whatever it was. And now, I feel horrible! I called my friend this morning because a gospel song that was playing on the radio reminded me of tarrying. LOL... don't ask questions. And we laughed at the memory of me tarrying- which was utter torture for me then- because I was not ready for no Holy Ghost power. And that's probably why the Lord didn't see fit to give it to me until about two years ago. But anywho, as we laughed, I felt that familiar pain in my insides. UGH..... I've been drinking water and eating toast and rice.

Hopefully this feeling will go away. Soon.

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Got this from Ms. Muze. Do it too and enjoy~

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people:

- I'm just not feeling this.
- I want what you have. I don't think you realize how blessed you truly are.
- The answer is no. But I'll never admit that to you.
- It was me. I started all of the mayhem with that "mysterious" email in high school.
- Those wigs are the worst. Please stop wearing them.
- I think you're immature and have serious issues.
- I don't want to hang out.
- Who is this and why are you calling back to back?
- Soul mate might be the right word.
- I faked it. A lot.


9 things about yourself:

- I don't know how to come out and say what I want to say when I know it's going to potentially hurt the other persons involved.
- I love love and want to be in love.
- I have low tolerance for attention seeking individuals.
- I don't trust easily and I'm always watching and observing. My friends called me detective inspector.
- My stomach hurts when I get really upset.
- I can be manipulative- which usually ends up back firing.
- I played the piano and danced ballet.
- I can't see past my hand without my contacts/glasses.
- I want a family.


8 ways to win your heart:

- Love God more than me.
- Make me feel special, show me plenty of affection
- Know how to express yourself
- Have direction in your life
- Think outside the box. I'm an eclectic type chick.
- Laugh at stupid things and not be afraid of being goofy.
- Be real.
- Freaking try.


7 things that cross your mind often:

- what 2009 will bring.
- why i never seem to get what i want.
- why doesn't this feel right?
- what else can i write?
- how can i change what i don't like?
- i need to go to the doctor.
- is this it?


6 things you do before you go to sleep:

- wash my face
-wrap my hair
-talk to my roomie
-think about all the things i should've said but didn't
- talk on the phone/text
- talk to God


5 people you couldn't live without:

- grandma
- Jesus
- a few close friends
- sadly, that's it


4 things you're wearing right now:

- scarf
- black pants
- pink sweater
- black coat


3 songs that fit your life perfectly:

these could change within the next thirty minutes...

- "Far Away From Here" by Kindred the Family
- "If It Makes You Happy" by Sheryl Crow
- "I Just Wanna Be Loved" by Jill Scott (The Real Thing: Track 14)


2 things you want to do before you die:

- experience true love
- the other is too personal... lol...


1 confession:

- i wish you would've left