BABIES!!!!!!

I don't know what it is. But I am all about babies!!! They are so precious! So cute! So innocent! And they smell good! Awwwwww!!!! Their little hands! And their little feet! And their little toes! OH!!! And their little eyes!!!!!!!!! I want one!! I wanna waddle! I want to wake up at 3 in the morning and feed my little one. I wanna take pics of my little one sleeping on his daddy's chest. (That's a classic pic and I know all of you either have one or has seen one)

But hold on there! I gotta get married first! Yes, I'm jumping the gun. This, I know. But babies!!! They are everywhere!!!!!! I just wanna nibble on their little cheeks! OH!!!!! And their little toes!!! And their little legs! Those little thighs!!!!!!!!

I'm really excited right now. If only you could hear the noises coming out of my mouth. Mind you, I'm at work too.... But everything happens in its own due time. And clearly there is no action going on around these parts. So, no babies soon. :(

Plus, I'm not in a position, financially, to take care of a child. Those things are expensive!!! I can barely take care of myself. Which is another reason why this chick right here CAN NOT and WILL NOT have any babies before I get married. That second income is going to be needed. Diapers, formula, Dr. visits, clothes- all of that is killer!

So, I'm happy just daydreaming and looking at other people's babies for now.

Weekend Update

I haven't really written anything personal on here in a minute. One, because there is nothing juicy to tell! And two, because I've become more guarded with my personal life. I have always been the one to just put everything out there. I've always been pretty open. But lately, I've found that I'm keeping my mouth shut about topics in my life.

Not everyone needs to know what goes on in your world. Not everyone has good intentions. Not everyone understands. You have to discern who you can talk to about certain things. I've found that people will take information that you share with them and judge you with it. That hurts. And people will also misinterpret situations. They can make a big deal out of nothing. You get what I'm saying?

So with that being said.....

I had a FABULOUS weekend filled with singing, laughter, praise, worship, eating, bonding, learning, gayness (Saturday's picks...), trusting, walls coming down, driving, being exhausted, and sheer enjoyment. =D
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OH!!!! But one thing that I will go into detail about is Sunday. Something erupted in me. My soul wants to do nothing but praise God. I feel the need to continually give Him thanks for ALL that he has done for me- for the things that He has kept from me- for protecting me from dangers seen and unseen- for the amazing people in my life- for my AWESOME leaders- for our anointed, life changing church- for my family- my job- the air that I breathe. Thank You!

I only want my focus to be on Him. I want no distractions. I want my relationships to be God focused and God driven. I realize that He is the source of my being. He is my life line. And that line needs to be established, embedded, and turned on in all of my relationships.

Randoms

*OMG! IT'S AUGUST!!!

* When and how did Jada Pinket Smith get so freaking dark? Thank You Lord for blessing me with beautiful brown skin. I don't have to go through any tanning or painting to get it. Hallelujah!

* Why do I have the strongest desire to hear Shorty is a 10! and I Love Your Girl? It's the music: the synth embellishments and the piano! And the way he says, "eh!" after every sentence! And the way he harmonizes! Ha! Gets me every time.

* Why am I afraid to open up? My auntie told me that I can't be afraid.

* Did you know that fear was a sin? I mean, I know that it is not of God. But I never really looked at it as sin. And fear is something that holds me back a lot. But after hearing my auntie talk to me, I can look fear dead on and say, "Get thee behind me!"

* I was right. Flashing lights.

* Explain this foolery to me. How you gonna send out an email about a "Hair Polishing" event and the photo used is a pic of a model with a cheap wig on??? Come on now....

* We just got told that we can go home at 12!!! WOOO HOO!!!!

* I woke up screaming, "HELP ME" this morning. I dreamt that these three hyena looking things were standing on my dresser looking at me. They were just staring. First, they looked mean. And then, the one in the front smiled at me. It was the biggest, most evil, joker like smile. Their faces looked like something out of that "Black Hole Sun" video. Remember that song? It was a smile that said, "We're about to attack you and have you for breakfast." The devil is a liar!

*Why is, "the devil is a liar!" a favorite among church folks? You can not study for a test, take the test, get a D- as a result and the reaction will be, "The devil is a liar!!" lol... what in the??

* Who said it was cool to wear scarves in the summer time? I dunno. But I shol' is rocking one!!

*Why can't churches up here sing "songs from the old church"? In Alabama, we're still singing those songs. I don't get it. It's like, someone has to be in the spirit, or some distinguished guest has to come to service for us to take it back. What's with that? Sometimes I feel like singing "Near the Cross." Sometimes, I wanna sing out, "Because He Lives" I can face tomorrow. Sometimes even a little "Amazing Grace" can help us out.

*If you are at least 30, and you sang in the choir when you were a youngin, I guarantee the children's choir sang, "He has done marvelous! He has done marvelous things! Praise the Lord!"

* My co-workers were talking about their family history. One dude's grandparents came in on the Mayflower. Another guy's great aunt died on the Titantic. Someone else was 1/4 italian, french, hungarian, and irish. And I'm sitting there looking stupid. I wanna know my roots. I mean, yeah, I'm black. But we all know that our family histories consist of more than just our ancestors from Africa. I mean, my father's mom looked like a white woman. I wanna know where I came from. I feel a project coming on.

*I just looked out the window and saw a cute pregnant woman. well, I hope she was pregnant. I can't wait to waddle around....