I am Not My Hair....

I had a slight freak out this morning. Last weekend, I cut off a good three inches of hair. I did it to make my transition easier and also because I haven't had a trim in a minute. I figured I'd do it myself because I won't be wearing my hair straight ever again. I don't plan on it. I don't want to do any damage to my new growth. So anywho, I 've worn my hair in flat twists all week. I love that look. But on Fridays, I usually undo them and wear a twist out.

I undid my twist out this morning and was not pleased with the results. I freaked out. It just didn't look right. Is it because it's shorter? But I can't be freaking out over that! I want to chop ALL of my relaxed ends off this summer. So, how in the world am I going to rock a TWA (teeny weeny afro) if I'm freaking out over a couple inches of hair?

And last night I dreamed about my hair. I dreamed I had a fro. A lot of transitioners did this prior to their chop. Who woulda thought that something as simple as hair would cause all of this psychological mumbo jumbo in our heads????

Anywho- I'm afraid my head isn't the right shape for a TWA. But, I rocked SUPER short hair in high school. Wearing my hair long for so many years has really altered my confidence in myself.

I am beautiful, darnit, with or without hair going down my back. Besides, it'll grow back.

And as far as a man is concerned, I haven't had a successful relationship with long, relaxed hair. So, what difference will it make if I chop it all off. Hey, this might do the trick! I might attract the right guy... ha!