It's 10:00 in the morning- on a Saturday. My siblings woke me at freaking 8:30!! I love being home, seeing the family and all, but dang!!!! I wake up at the crack of dawn Monday-Friday. Can a girl sleep until at least 9 on the weekend? Anywho......
Have I ever mentioned how much I love Shoulder Lean?!? That song makes me so happy! And don't let me be driving and it come on the radio! It is SO OVER!!!!!! I wake up the entire neighborhood. I'm a hoodlum...."I can shoulder lean, I’ on know how to dance tho....." LOL! LUV IT!
I'm about to go back to the place that I call home in less than a week. I am SUPER excited. I feel like I've been gone for 10 years! Its gonna be so surreal. And its also gonna be sad cuz I'm going to have to leave everyone all over again. It may hurt worse the second time. I'm supposed to be making CDs and stuff. Different stuff. I gotta make a 2001 CD cuz that’s when we all came in. I'm afraid to start that one. You know that overwhelming feeling of nostalgia that you get when you hear a song that reminds you of the good times? That’s how I feel. I wonder what the weather is like down there.....
It's so BEAUTIFUL outside up here. Fall is my favorite time of the year. It's nice and cool. Just cool enough to snuggle up with someone, but not freezing. The sky has this overcast look and the leaves on the trees are starting to turn red, brown, and orange. I love it. It makes me feel warm inside.
If you know me, then you know that I DESPISE John Legend!!! ARRGGHH!!! He does this thing with his lips when he takes pictures. It's so gay. And then his lyrical content. Does he think that he is God's gift to woman? And yes, I meant woman. However, being the music whore that I am, I must commend his work on an artistic level. The dude has talent. He's got it. But the woman in me doesn't like him. Well, one morning I was making coffee, getting ready for work, and I was watching VH1 Soul. I see this dude lying in the bed caressing this dark woman. Then the music started. It's ol' John Legend. I listened. And I liked. The video was weird. The women kept changing. One minute she was black, the next white, then Asian... it was weird. But the song sparked my interest and I think I'm gonna check out his next album... or at least download it. ;)
This is on a totally different tangent.... We've all heard the stories about women (and men) who've been hurt or been in crazy relationships and as a result they block out the rest of the world. I never thought that I was this way. But lately, I've been experiencing the darndest thing! For some reason, men want to open up to me and tell me all this stuff, when I haven't given them ANY indication that I want them to or that I WANT to even hear it! I find myself feeling nauseous or getting uneasy when a man starts to open up or tell me something that he hasn't told others. It doesn't even have to be romantic or about the two of us. I just get real uneasy. I don't know if that is a result of some thing or some situation that I went through in the past. I dunno. But it’s weird. I get like a dude! Show one sign of emotion and I want to end the conversation...
Man, all of that was random as hell, huh?
9.15.2006
You Have The Right To Be Stupid... ONCE!
I was at work today talking to Ms. Donna. I love that woman! She is the trillest Itallian I know! Anywho... We were talking about this woman who is married to an IDIOT. They've been married for 15 years, went to high school together... and for the past couple of years he's been acting out. Donna said that her husband sees the idiot coming in in the morning when he is leaving for work! The man is obviously cheating on her. They have 2 kids. But she will not do anything about it. And I was like, 'well- its her fault.' Not that she deserves that. But a man- or a woman for that matter- is gonna do what you let them do.
We then got into a conversation about how we both have been idiots and let a man run all over us. She dated a guy who dumped her over and over again and also got a woman pregnant while they were together. She said he was a DOG, but she was in love with him. I then told her my story. And in the end, the only reason we were hurt was because we allowed the crap to happen.
Me and Toni were talking about this one day. Every woman is allowed to have 1 stupid moment in her life. And by this, I mean you are completely oblivious to the obvious. You allow a man who probably doesn't want you for real to run all over you. He uses you for his own gain; whether it be sexual, financial, as a trophy, or just to feed his own psychotic ego. We've all done it. But one time is enough!
After I told Donna an extremely abbreviated version of my story, she asked me if I had learned anything from it. And I did. I learned a lot. I already knew this, but it really reinforced it. You have to go through things in life. If you don't, you'll never learn and you'll never grow. If I had it to do all over again, I would have never gone onto the balcony of the apartment below me. But since I can't go back in time, I'll use that experience to my advantage- and NEVER allow myself to allow my mind to get caught up like that again.
So, don't fret over things of the past. Whats done is done. I bet you're a lot smarter and a whole lot wiser because of it. And It used to kill me to know that he was merely a stepping stone in my life. He was my learning experience. I didn't want him to be my learning experience. I wanted him to be the one. I always thought that after I broke up with my first 'real' guy, that I would never love like that again. Then I met my second and forgot all about the first one! lol!!! The third time is a charm. He HAS to be FANTASTIC! LORD PLEASE!!! lol.... I don't want ANYMORE learning experiences in the love department.....
We then got into a conversation about how we both have been idiots and let a man run all over us. She dated a guy who dumped her over and over again and also got a woman pregnant while they were together. She said he was a DOG, but she was in love with him. I then told her my story. And in the end, the only reason we were hurt was because we allowed the crap to happen.
Me and Toni were talking about this one day. Every woman is allowed to have 1 stupid moment in her life. And by this, I mean you are completely oblivious to the obvious. You allow a man who probably doesn't want you for real to run all over you. He uses you for his own gain; whether it be sexual, financial, as a trophy, or just to feed his own psychotic ego. We've all done it. But one time is enough!
After I told Donna an extremely abbreviated version of my story, she asked me if I had learned anything from it. And I did. I learned a lot. I already knew this, but it really reinforced it. You have to go through things in life. If you don't, you'll never learn and you'll never grow. If I had it to do all over again, I would have never gone onto the balcony of the apartment below me. But since I can't go back in time, I'll use that experience to my advantage- and NEVER allow myself to allow my mind to get caught up like that again.
So, don't fret over things of the past. Whats done is done. I bet you're a lot smarter and a whole lot wiser because of it. And It used to kill me to know that he was merely a stepping stone in my life. He was my learning experience. I didn't want him to be my learning experience. I wanted him to be the one. I always thought that after I broke up with my first 'real' guy, that I would never love like that again. Then I met my second and forgot all about the first one! lol!!! The third time is a charm. He HAS to be FANTASTIC! LORD PLEASE!!! lol.... I don't want ANYMORE learning experiences in the love department.....
9.13.2006
Retail. Justin. Beyonce
Don't ever work in retail. I hate it. If this were my career, I think I'd cry myself to sleep every night. This place is like manual labor! Thank God I'm going back to school. And I thank God for the job that he has in store for me... Anywho....
It's getting cold up here and I don't have any winter clothes. They are all in Alabama. I didn't plan on staying in VA this long. I need to get those babies shipped ASAP!
I bought Justin Timberlake's album yesterday. Um....I guess this is the year of "different" because every single album I bought this year has been totally the opposite of what I expected. It's like everyone is trying to change their sound or something. I dunno. It's not bad. But its completely different from Justified. Maybe its cuz when he did Justified, he was trying to solidify himself as an R&B artist. And when he was still put in a 'pop' category, I guess he said, 'hey- i'll just stick to pop." Well, thats what he said on MTV. Timbaland can make some good music. But too much of him is just a headache! And thats what Future Sex/Love Sounds is. There are some hot tracks though. There is this interlude that makes me wanna..um...well, let's just say its real sexy. And Three Six Mafia is on a track! It's alright. I can see me and my girls bumping that in the car on the way out. 'Until the End of Time' sounds like a Prince song. Very nice. His best songs are the ballad like ones. Oh yeah- Pharrell should've been on it. He would've broken up all those 'timbalandish" beats.....
Beyonce is another one who strayed from the formula. I'm already tired of listening to it. Its not that the CD isn't good. It's just too-um- hippity hoppity for me. Ya know? But when I'm in a nice "sunny" mood, I'll play it. Resentment, Kitty Kat, and Green Light are my favs.
It's getting cold up here and I don't have any winter clothes. They are all in Alabama. I didn't plan on staying in VA this long. I need to get those babies shipped ASAP!
I bought Justin Timberlake's album yesterday. Um....I guess this is the year of "different" because every single album I bought this year has been totally the opposite of what I expected. It's like everyone is trying to change their sound or something. I dunno. It's not bad. But its completely different from Justified. Maybe its cuz when he did Justified, he was trying to solidify himself as an R&B artist. And when he was still put in a 'pop' category, I guess he said, 'hey- i'll just stick to pop." Well, thats what he said on MTV. Timbaland can make some good music. But too much of him is just a headache! And thats what Future Sex/Love Sounds is. There are some hot tracks though. There is this interlude that makes me wanna..um...well, let's just say its real sexy. And Three Six Mafia is on a track! It's alright. I can see me and my girls bumping that in the car on the way out. 'Until the End of Time' sounds like a Prince song. Very nice. His best songs are the ballad like ones. Oh yeah- Pharrell should've been on it. He would've broken up all those 'timbalandish" beats.....
Beyonce is another one who strayed from the formula. I'm already tired of listening to it. Its not that the CD isn't good. It's just too-um- hippity hoppity for me. Ya know? But when I'm in a nice "sunny" mood, I'll play it. Resentment, Kitty Kat, and Green Light are my favs.
9.12.2006
Sexy Love. Valentino. Hell
Have I mentioned that I am obsessed with "Sexy Love" by Neyo? Everytime I hear that song, I grin from ear to ear like he is singing to me. It's something about the way the beat drops in the song and that cute little melody. I dunno. Not to mention, the words. He's a cool writer. I have his album. I still have yet to listen to all of it. I dunno. Some of the songs make me feel sick to my stomach. Literally. There are still certain situations that I can't listen to in songs. It makes my stomach turn.
I'm practically made of music. I have music on my computer from 2001. My computer is like a time line. If I want to go back to a certain time in my life, I just go to my computer, arrange the media by the date created, and go to the date. It's weird. I think I have a time machine. Well, occasionally, I like to test just how much I've gotten over certain situations in my life. It sounds weird, but its true. Music sparks so many emotions and feelings and memories. I have a song for everything. Well, last night I listened to Mr. Valentino. If only you knew what that album symbolizes for me. Don't expect me to tell you, cuz you'll never know... ;p But I listened to that album from start to finish. Surprisingly, I only felt like throwing up once. There was a time when I couldn't look at the name Bobby Valentino. Looks like I'm going on with life. Which is good.....
I'm leaving for a familiar place in about 2 weeks. I'm pretty excited. It should be interesting. I haven't been to this place in some months. Its basically like going to hell. On everything. But maybe the heat has been turned down and the flames extinguished.
I forgot to mention this: On a lighter note:
This has to be the funniest ish I heard today! In Australia, there is a backlash against the sting rays!!! LMAO!!! These people are going around killing the sting rays and..lol... cutting their tails off. I heard in on the Tom Joyner Morning Show this morning on my way to work. WTF?!? How are you gonna lash out at animal for an accident? LOL!!! I laughed for a good 20 minutes at work about it. People are weird. Seriously....
I'm practically made of music. I have music on my computer from 2001. My computer is like a time line. If I want to go back to a certain time in my life, I just go to my computer, arrange the media by the date created, and go to the date. It's weird. I think I have a time machine. Well, occasionally, I like to test just how much I've gotten over certain situations in my life. It sounds weird, but its true. Music sparks so many emotions and feelings and memories. I have a song for everything. Well, last night I listened to Mr. Valentino. If only you knew what that album symbolizes for me. Don't expect me to tell you, cuz you'll never know... ;p But I listened to that album from start to finish. Surprisingly, I only felt like throwing up once. There was a time when I couldn't look at the name Bobby Valentino. Looks like I'm going on with life. Which is good.....
I'm leaving for a familiar place in about 2 weeks. I'm pretty excited. It should be interesting. I haven't been to this place in some months. Its basically like going to hell. On everything. But maybe the heat has been turned down and the flames extinguished.
I forgot to mention this: On a lighter note:
This has to be the funniest ish I heard today! In Australia, there is a backlash against the sting rays!!! LMAO!!! These people are going around killing the sting rays and..lol... cutting their tails off. I heard in on the Tom Joyner Morning Show this morning on my way to work. WTF?!? How are you gonna lash out at animal for an accident? LOL!!! I laughed for a good 20 minutes at work about it. People are weird. Seriously....
9.11.2006
Randomness
So, I decided to do my random thoughts on here instead of on my myspace page. It's easier for me this way... Anywho....
I keep having these dreams! And all of them are so vivid and weird! A few nights ago I dreamed about a dead snake. Anyone know what that is supposed to mean? And last night I dreamed that I was 'intertwined' with a certain someone. But we were in school again and he had a girlfriend. And instead of him going to class, we went to a room, i put on some minnie ripperton, and we made love. What the hell does that mean?? Well, actually, I know exactly what it means. I just wish the dreams would go away. I wonder what its gonna take to make them stop.
I keep having these dreams! And all of them are so vivid and weird! A few nights ago I dreamed about a dead snake. Anyone know what that is supposed to mean? And last night I dreamed that I was 'intertwined' with a certain someone. But we were in school again and he had a girlfriend. And instead of him going to class, we went to a room, i put on some minnie ripperton, and we made love. What the hell does that mean?? Well, actually, I know exactly what it means. I just wish the dreams would go away. I wonder what its gonna take to make them stop.
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