Have You Seen Me?

Somewhere along the way I lost myself

I'm not sure how and I can't tell you when

But somewhere along the way

I lost myself

$80 jeans, stiletto pumps, a bag to match each fit

That was never me

I was cute in my overalls, flip flops, and a baby Tee

Worrying about my hair, eyeshadow on my lids?

A ponytail and some chapstick was all that I'd give

And with this simplicity I was confident and care free

You get what you got, love me or hate me

But somewhere along the way

I lost myself

BCBG, Nine West, Baker's, Steve Madden

Where did all of this come from?

Louis Vitton, Coach, Prada

MAC eyeshadow and lipgloss

Just a whole lot of

junk

Junk that was suffocating me

Junk that was blinding me

Junk that was turning me into

someone else

Somewhere along the way

I lost myself

Chemical fire cream every 12 weeks

Roller wraps, flat irons

hair so sleek

I did all of this

just for you

to not even acknowledge

the pain that I went through

to become someone else

to become her

just to have you love me less

deeper and deeper

i was drowning

in this sea

suicide

slowly murdering the real me

I'm not sure how i survived

don't know who came to my rescue

but I'm glad i was revived

my life brand new

Somewhere along the way I lost myself
I remember now and can tell you when

But I'm happy to say

that it'll never happen again