I got the damn CD. Finally. I'm a freaking maniac. Honest! It's cool. I guess. You know how you gotta listen to a CD more than once to see if you really like it? Yeah. It's a lot more laid back than his first one though. Still throwbackish. The album is the soundtrack to a lot of people's relationships. Just like the first one. So far I love Save Room, of course... And Heaven. That's a hot one. Kudos to Mr. West. Of course I love "Again" and "Another Again". You usually like the stuff you can relate to.......... Well, the fact that you keep doing something after you said it would end. That's a mutha'.
I was watching Love Jones. Yes, I'm just seeing Love Jones. That was a good movie. I see what all the hype was about. Of course, that was almost 10 years ago and I wouldn't have really understood the movie at 13. It made me think. I'm always thinking. But that and now listening to John Legend's album really has me off in "Tasha land".
Love is so confusing and you CAN NOT explain it. And I really think that's how love is supposed to be. You just can't explain why. OK. Well, you can explain why you love someone or why they make you 'smile with your heart'. But when pure passion is involved, its so inexplicable. And I'm not babbling. I'm speaking from experience. Its like you can't explain why you keep coming back to this person. Why can't you let go? And often times the person is all wrong for you. And probably not what the good Lord wants for you. But you listen to that damned heart of yours. And those feelings. (which is why we should keep our pants up until we get married because you lose sight of what God wants and listen to what YOU want).... Anyway....
Its an addiction. And I know that I've written about this before. But I'm in pure awe of how much power love can have over a person. And then you get tricked into thinking that this must be real and it must be who you're supposed to be with because the feeling is so strong.
Why? I wish you only felt that way for the person you're supposed to be with. Ya know? I hate that.
And with that, I don't like just anyone. I'm picky and usually the person that I end up falling for has this strange power over me. I just get so weak thinking about them. I want to be around him all the time. I get weak thinking about being in his arms. I don't think that you should have to make yourself like a person. If you have to think twice about it, then its not meant to be. That's how I honestly feel. Now don't get me wrong. I did question the guy that I ended up falling head over heels for. My friends had to tell me to give the poor guy a chance. But I don't mean in that way. If you've been conversing with this person for a while and you still have to go back and forth in your head about whether you like him, or if you have to make yourself like him, then it just ain't meant to be.
Love. And when you feel so strongly for someone and there is all this passion, what happens when in the end the other person never felt all of that. I think that's cruel. And crushing. Yeah, sometimes you get orgasms mixed up with real love. But dang. Sometimes you do truly love that person. And I think you know this because after all is said and done, they still linger in your head. You wonder how they're doing. You wonder if your paths will ever cross again. You picture in your mind what it will be like when you do run into one another. And secretly wish that it ends up the way it did in Love Jones.
Love is a mutha'. Ain't it?
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