The journey has been long. It's had its ups and downs, good days and bad days. The good days outweight the bad, however. Sometimes I wake up feeling so down. The longer I lay there, the more the feeling deposits itself into my being. Misery loves company. So I search violently for the CDs and songs that I buried away; the songs that remind me of love, the songs that remind me of what I'm waiting on the Lord for.

Some people ask for money. Others ask for fame. Some people pray for material possessions. My top desire is to have the love of my life. This love

Thankful Friday

It's Friday. Thank God! This week has been a good week: no emotional melt downs (lol), no issues. It's been a week of confirmation, affirmation, and knowing. So, what am I thankful for this week?

1. My Job. All blessings come from the Lord. My job is truly a blessing. God has placed me in an environment in which I am able to learn and grow. In addition, the promotion potential is like none other! :) I know that God placed me here for spiritual reasons as well as natural reasons. In the natural, I have provision for bills, food, etc. But spiritually, I've been put there on assignment. I'm an example to those who don't know Christ. He has also blessed me with a wonderful friend. God plucked me out of Alexandria and placed me in D.C. to work. I happen to work with a woman who is around the same age as me, in love with the lord, and lives FIVE minutes from me. The way that we met was just too perfect for it to not be God. So, thank you lord for this job.

I Have to Check You

Okay. I feel the need to clarify some things, especially since my blog is now linked to my facebook profile. I'm not sure if that was such a smart idea because I am friends with a lot of people on there whom I'd rather not know ANYTHING about my life. But at the same time, I can't hide out and neglect the gift that God has given me. I'm a writer. I write. I'm transparent. My transparency helps others. This isn't something that I made up. This is evidenced from comments on my blog, messages I receive, and even people walking up to me. Not only that, I KNOW that what I do on here every day is a part of where God is leading me. And I will leave it at that.

I shouldn't have to explain myself, but I will.

The last post was not about me venting. It wasn't about me being upset. It wasn't about a girl crying over a lost relationship. The previous post was about the power of God. He cares so much for me and you too. He cared enough to talk to me. He cared enough to respond to something that was going on in my life. I've said it time and time again and I will say it again: God cares about the intricacies of our lives. He isn't a mean ogre living up in the clouds. He is love and he only wants the best for us. He is gracious. He is faithful. He is merciful. He is forgiving. He is my peace, my joy, my strength, my everything.

So, the next time I decide to be as transparent as I was yesterday, remember that it's never about me. It's about what the LORD IS DOING through it.

All things work together for the good of them who love the Lord.... (Romans 8:28). Get your weight up.

Be blessed.
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It's So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh outweigh the bad.... I thought we'd get to see forever, but forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road is going to lead. All I know is where we've been and what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow I hope it's worth all the wait.
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories to be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

Thankful Friday

Happy Friday!

It has been a long, heavy week. I rode the emotional rollercoaster this week for sure! One day I was happy and bright eyed. The next I was upset, holding on to the past. I can honestly say that there is only ONE constant in my life. Now, on to what I'm thankful for:

My Health, Short and Sweet

The topic at hand: my health. I meant to write about this, but I never got around to it. I figured that the contents of this particular post may have been TMI (too much information) for my readers. But here is the short abridged version: I got a colonoscopy done.

Thankful Friday

It's Friday!!!!

Today, instead of writing about the lows of my life, I'll talk about the highs. God is not only with me in my valley, but he is with me when I'm on the mountain top as well.

I have so much to be thankful for. I need to incorporate this into my blog. I need to have a "thankful" day; a day in which I only focus on the goodness of the Lord: blessings, grace, mercy, faithfulness, forgiveness, longsuffering....

So, today, I dub Friday, "Thankful Friday". What do I have to be thankful for?

Quickie



pic from Kirk Franklin's album

I realize that my posts have been a bit heavy lately. However, I write from my own experiences. Right now, things have been that way. It's not a bad heavy; more like growing pains.

I'm learning to trust the Lord. When Paul told us in 1 Timothy 6:12 to "fight the good fight of faith," he wasn't talking about fighting others. He was talking about fighting ourselves. We determine whether we want to have faith or not.

Everyday, I have to make a choice. I can choose to believe what the Lord has spoken to me concerning my situation; or I can choose to ignore him and do my own thing.

Maturity comes when we choose to believe. Believing is having faith.

It's a FIGHT because it is unnatural to believe in what we can not see. If the bank called you up right now and told you to come down because you've somehow inherited $5,000 you would probably leave work to claim that money.

Growing in Faith

When God speaks, there is no comma or question mark at the end of the sentence. It is declarative and ends with a period. Often times, we add question marks, semicolons, and comas to the end of what God says because we are trusting in our own understanding. God will tell us to go left; but because we don't want to, because it doesn't make sense, because it doesn't fit into the happy ending that we've concocted, we begin to question it.

Creepy

I'm afraid I have a blog stalker... from Texas.... it's starting to freak me out.

Surgery (Repost)

I open my eyes and I'm laying on an operating table. The bright white from the lamp blinds me as I try to look around to see where I am. I look to my right and see a man standing in full scrub gear with knife in hand, ready to cut on me.

I immediately tense up and try to run. But something is holding me down.

Let Me Explain

I just like this pic...

My open letter to my ex was out of the blue. I rarely openly talk about him on here. If I do talk about our relationship, it's in code, wrapped up in the things that God is doing and showing me in the process.

I must say that I was completely caught off guard by his unexpected appearance in my life.

I see the ex at least twice a week. We belong to the same church. However, there are no words spoken between us. We pass one another without uttering a single word. He is invisible to me and I to him. Well, it was that way until last Tuesday.