Today, God showed me how much He loves me and how much I mean to Him. He gave me my joy back. He gave me my confidence back.
I have a new found reverance for Him. And He reminded me that no matter what happens, no matter who comes and leaves my life, He is still in control and ALL things are working together for my good.
You can talk about me. You can scandalize my name. You can leave me. It's okay because I realize that the ones that walk out were never meant to be there.
What I'm realizing is that I learn from all situations. And God gets the Glory for it all. And the things that I learn simply set me up to be able to handle the blessing that God has for me.
I almost lost sight of the beautiful, intellingent, funny, eclectic woman that God had made me. In no way am I perfect. I am still learning and growing everyday. And I thank God that He will never leave me. And I thank God that He is not like man, including myself.
Today opened my eyes about a lot of things. And I'm going to give it all over to God because He knows what's best. And I'm not going to fight His will anymore.
This is my white flag. I surrender, Lord. I don't want this anymore.