11.09.2009

Just Get Back Up When it Knocks You Down

"Giants do die. The bigger they are, the harder they fall. Giants they Die. Just walk around the Jericho wall. Now I come in Your name and I stand on Your Word. What is loosed in the Heavens will be loosed on earth. Let God arise, giants fall."

SO.... I'm so digging (yes, I used that word) the Lord right now. It's crazy. I had some darts thrown at me this weekend. These were huge, cannon ball sized darts. I was knocked down. But I didn't stay down. And I thank God because my weekend could've easily gone a different route.

Yes, I cried. Yep, I even let out a scream. And at church on Sunday, I couldn't stop crying. Rivers flowed from my eyes. At our 9am service, the scripture for the sermon was barely read all the way through before tears started streaming down my face. I really think my spirit was weeping. Is that possible?

Sometimes I wonder about myself. There are times when I worship the Lord and I feel absolutely nothing; there are no tears, no emotional outbursts. And then there are times when I just cry. But I know for a fact that my worship on Sunday was more of, "I don't understand. This hurts like crazy. But I'll trust you." I think that's why I cried the way I did.

I was knocked down hard on Saturday. But I'm up again. The fight continues on. To God be ALL of the glory.


2 comments:

Don said...

Enjoyed the read. We mirror in the fact that we at times feel numb. Then, other times our emotions overcome us and we shed tears. I can't explain it, but I know what you mean.

Knocked down and back up and at it. Like every one of us should do.

N.D. Ellery said...

I understand about being down and still trusting. i am a church crier, too. I've been writing about trusting Him even in the midst of the storm. and loving God even when you are hurt. But I keep wrapping myself in his word and remembering that God is faithful.