Everything that I knew, everything that God was trying to tell me via my intuition and even my dreams came to fruition. And I tried to pray it all off because of pride and fear of what's next. But I always knew.
And I'm not even mad, sad, or upset. I feel free. Bishop was right. Once you let go of your Judas, God will be glorified. Didn't I tell yall? 30 days.
God is getting rid of all of the junk and people in my life who didn't really care about me. And it's funny because I told him that I wanted to grow with him. But as soon as I released him, all of that weight, all of that heaviness was gone. It was like, "ahhhhh..... freedom"
No more. I'm out of it. And I'm so happy. I'm even happier that now that I've let it go, my blessing is on the way.
Larry told me, "T, that is not your husband! But don't tell B that I said that." And then he said, "He will know without a shadow of a doubt and will love not only you but the God in you." And I so believe that. As a matter of fact, I already knew that. That was just confirmation.
Today was fear. I was afraid to let go so I egged on his messages. I entertained it. But I'm so grateful that tonight happened. Because I don't want to be with a man who has to choose. She can have you. I need someone who is whole and knows who he is also. Seriously, he isn't what I thought he was. So what I thought I wanted was just really a lie. It wasn't reality. The reality turned out to be ugly, selfish, sneaky, and just plain wrong! And I'm glad I got to see the truth. Because I could finally make a sound decision based on THE TRUTH with NO REGRETS.
=) I really feel a shout coming on!!
HALLELUJAH!!!!!
God is so good to me. I don't deserve it.
2 comments:
I am so with you on this post as i have been going thru a similar circumstance (at least in terms of being in a elationship that isn't God's best for me). The other week my pastor was talking about walking in total freedom, not partial, and I believe when we let go of the people we thought we needed we will see total and complete healing in our lives. Congratulations on the release!
Thank you! Yeah, I'm so ready to just be healed completely from it all. I was claiming victory but still holding on. So, last night was the step that I needed to take. I was so afraid to say goodbye. And allll along.... geez... i promise I'll listen to you God. I've learned my lesson. I don't know why I continually think I can out do God....
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