9.24.2008

My Refuge

Art by Fred Matthews
Today is one of those days when I wish I had a man. I'm feeling extremely emotional, tired, frustrated, and vulnerable. All I want to do is crawl in my imaginary boyfriend's arms, cry, and feel all of the craziness lift away. He would hug me tightly and let me know that everything is going to be OK. He would kiss my forehead and then each tear that fell from my eye. He would tell me how beautiful I am to him and how much he loves me. I would look up at him and tell him that I love him too. Then we'd both smile, knowing that no matter how hectic the world got, we could find refuge in one another's arms.

But that is a dream. And as I type this, I hear the Lord saying that He wants to be my refuge. He wants to take away the pain.

But I ain't gonna lie.

It's hard.

7 comments:

Don said...

I wouldn't be surprised if some dude reads this and wishes he had you as his woman. The refuge you offer sounds like something more than worth coming home too.

Love the spirituality offered as well.

Chari said...

I feel you girl. I so feel you.

HisDaughter83 said...

aww Don! =)

tuhmeesuh said...

i can so relate to the feeling. it is hard. and when you have that, but aren't able to "have that", it doesn't make it any easier.

but God hears you, He knows our needs and wants. and He is willing to help us obtain them all.

be blessed, and ease through those days one moment at a time. the storms don't last always.

Anonymous said...

I was feeling the same way. I have learned that when I am feeling this way, I should read God's word. I ran across a verse in Isaiah 54:5 that says the Lord wants to be our husband. It actually uses the word "husband". I was taken aback.

No man can fill that void only God can. A companion is just the icing on the top.

HisDaughter83 said...

@ honeyindigo: thanks for the words and thanks for stopping by! =)

@ talulazoeapple: OMG! I have to go and read that right now!

The Language of Letting Go said...

Opp, me too, and it is 9 months and 25 days later.