Turn, Turn, Turn

"But I can't stand these growing pains...." Ms. Badu never lied when she said that. I can't stand them while I'm in the moment. But hindsight is 20/20. And I'm so glad that I have to go through them. I'm a much better person once I go through the situation and learn from it.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 tells us that there is a season for everything. Everything happens for a reason. "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven..."

The Byrds made one of my favorite songs (Turn, Turn, Turn) using that entire scripture. And its so true.

I can see the transitions in my life. The structure of the relationships in my life are changing. People are going while others are replacing them just as quickly. The season that is ending in my life has to do with a friendship. The friendship showed me a lot about myself. I saw the good, the bad, and the ugly of me. The ugly really disappointed me. Be careful what you ask for. I asked God to take out what wasn't like him. And sure enough, he allowed me to be in a situation that uncovered all of my ways. Every bit of bitterness, anger, trust issues, and unforgiveness was surfaced. Oh, and let's not forget loving unconditionally.

I don't feel like going into it. But I have learned. I've learned how to be more assertive. I've learned how to not let people walk all over me. I've learned that friends can and do grow apart- even in the smallest amount of time. I've learned that, "make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold" is something that we all need to live by. And when a friend can't understand that concept, you should deal with the issue head on. Yes, deal with issues head on. I've learned to keep my mouth shut!!! I've learned a lesson in loyalty. I've learned to love through the flaws. I'm not perfect either... I can't stand drama and fakeness. It disgusts me. And I've learned that if this ever happens again, I need to talk to God about it and let him work it out. Because all we ever do is make things worse.

I'm going to take all of this into the relationships that blossom in my life from this day forward. No more drama. No more childishness. No more pettiness. No more. I'm a few years away from 30. No more games.

What's funny is that I've NEVER encountered anything like this before. So, I hope I've learned what I was supposed to learn. I will take the ugly in me and dispose of it. I will be a better me because of it.

I'm just glad its over.


pay no attention to the clips..... but it is the song.