New Life?

I’m struggling with my sense of self
I’m struggling with me
How do I fit into this new life that has become mine?

I had no issues before
I am who I am
You either hate it or love it
But that now can’t be
How do I fit into this new life that has become mine?

Stressed out or burdened
Upset or broken
Idle or bored
I had a way to escape all of the above
How do I fit into this new life that has become mine?

R&B
Soul
Funk
Jazz
A sucker for
A beautiful melody
A crazy bass line
Harmonies out of this world
How do I fit into this new life that has become mine?

How I see myself
Young, sexy and free
How you dress
A representation of what’s on the inside
I agree to an extent

Mini skirt and tights
Cute top to match
Fierce hills
Hair free and wild
How do I fit into this new life that has become mine?

So afraid of letting Him down
Hearing the words of my leaders in my thoughts
Contradicting what I thought was right

I’m not talking about drinking
And I’m not talking about drugs
I’m not talking about clubbing
And its definitely not boys

I’m struggling with my sense of self
I’m struggling with me
How do I fit into this new life that has become mine?