For a long time I've been feeling lost. I feel like I'm running and not going anywhere. I feel like time is steadily passing, but I wake up everyday doing the same thing, stuck in the same place.
I no longer knew what to pray for. I just knew that I was unhappy. I stopped dreaming.
That's a dangerous place to be in.
Two weeks ago my church had its annual Women's Conference. I remember crying out to the Lord, asking him what his will was for my life. I had no clue anymore. I stopped going after the things that I wanted. I couldn't see anything. I felt blind. I tried to look beyond and only saw a vast nothing. This had been bothering me for a long time.
Yesterday I sat in my office and stared out the window. I just looked at the clouds, the sky, the people driving by and wondered what else was out there for me. I wondered how I was going to get out of this mess that I am in. I just sat there. I even began to blog about it. But it was just too much.
Wednesday night Bible teaching. The atmosphere was crazy! I could tell that tonight was going to be off the chain. Literally.
Pastor opened his mouth and the words hit me like a ton of bricks.
"Dream Again"
See, the truth of the matter is that God has a plan for our lives. Yes, I'm unhappy with my present state. Yes, I want more money. Yes, I want my own place. Yes, I want to have a career writing. Yes, I want a family.
But I let the enemy stop me from dreaming. I let him tell me that those things were silly. He would say to me, "People are starving and dying everyday and you're asking for some money? Rubbish!"
So, I wouldn't ask. I would simply say, "God, help me with my finances." If that.
But see, we have to dream. Pastor said that, "dreams speak about your victories, are visualized through your faith, and materialized through your efforts." You have to keep a dream in your spirit. If you have no dream, no passion, then what are you striving for? What are you striving to become?
And if you have a dream- whatever it may be- don't stop. If you stop dreaming, your hope dissipates. Hebrews 11:1 says that, "Faith is the substance of things HOPED for. The evidence of things NOT SEEN."
So, you have to have a dream to have hope. And you have to have hope to have faith. And without faith, it is impossible to please God. God is ultimately above ALL of what we perceive to be true. It's a must that we please him. It's a must that we diligently seek him. Because "for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him."
All in all, I've learned these things to be true:
- It's ok to want more for your life. God's will is for his people to be a blessed people. If we go higher, we can help the Kingdom of God in higher realms.
- We have to go through trials. We will have doors shut in our face. It's not easy. But your faith in God is what will please him and is what will get you through.
- Keep Hope Alive! Rev. Jessie Jackson was on point when he said that!! =)
- We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. And that being said, all things within the will of God: all things just, honest, true, pure, pleasing to him.
- Dreams don't magically happen. You have to put in effort. God will give you the strength. You just have to ACT on the Word and DO IT. Remember: FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD.
- Don't let the enemy steal your dreams from you. He knows the plans for your life. He understands God's love for us more than we do. And he hates it.
I hope this helps someone. Because it sure did help me!!
Peace and Blessings.
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