Just a lil bit

Where do I begin? Well, Brandy and Montre's death really got to me. I found myself thinking about the people who I have cut off. I then told myself that I was gonna email all of them. So, I started this mass email about how I wanted to just say hi and see if they were ok and blah blah blah because tomorrow is not promised. Well, it quickly turned personal. If you've been keeping up, then you know to whom the email turned out going. Yeah. I sent it. And I didn't feel dumb about doing either. I just hope he doesn't think its about him. Cuz its not. It's about me. I just needed to do it for myself, ya know?

I had a phone interview today. Please pray that I get this job!! I want to leave my current employer SOOO bad!!!!

That's all I have to say.

My DP, my soRHOr, my Kim is moving to the area! I'm excited as hell. I can't wait!!!!! :p

Death. Questions. Please, no answers....

I've never been happier to NOT be in TUSCALOOSA, AL than I am now. There is just too much going on down there. Barely a month ago, we lost Nikki. I wake up Saturday afternoon, turn on my phone, and receive a text that says, "Life is SO precious... Montre' Walker passed this morning." WTF?!? I immediately call my friend to find out what the hell was going on. He was shot, by accident. I'm so tired of hearing bad news come out of that place. And he was such a kind hearted person. Everyone is in shambles. I couldn't bear to be around it all. I don't even want to go on the LameBook. Everyone has his picture up. It's so damn sad. I'm tired of being sad. I wanna be happy. I will pray for his family and those truly grieving over him. I sound selfish, I know, but I'm glad that I didn't know him that well. I couldn't bear it. My heart goes out to all of you who were close to him or were touched by him in one way or another.....

Every time something like this happens, I'm always reminded of how truly blessed me and my friends are. We do DUMB shit all the time!! And I say this because, as the story goes, Montre' was with some frat and I guess they were doing something with guns. I don't know how, but the gun went off and he was killed.

I can count 2 occasions where a certain person (who was in my life at the time) would point his rifle at me, in a playful manner. Accidents happen. I've driven drunk. I've walked around outside with my friends intoxicated, high, you name it. Yeah, we were off the chain. And I'm not proud of it. Only by God's grace did we not end up in jail, kidnapped, or in a ditch some where. *sigh* I don't want to dwell on it. We're still here. And I thank God for that. I don't understand death. I don't understand everything that God does. And I'm not going to try to figure it out. It's too much for my psyche to grasp. I'm not going to ask why I'm still here and Nikki, Leisha, and Montre aren't. That goes into something that is far beyond me. We're all so young. We have so much more living to do. *sigh* I can't write anymore.....

Random Rants

I'm a music freak. I like all types of music and am always down to expand my range when it comes to genres. I'm no where near where I'd like to be as far as music is concerned... But that's not my point. My friend Damian told me MONTHS ago to cop Corinne Bailey Rae's album. I would always go in Target and look at it. I've even picked it up and walked around Target with it a few times, only to put it back on the shelf. Well, the other day, something told me to go ahead and get it. Wow. I absolutely love it. I was scared because of her debut song, you know, "Girl put your records on..." was sooo freaking happy, bubbly and kinda cheesy. I don't do any of thee above. But man, her voice is beautiful. And the songs are anything but the forbidden three, except for that one.... I love breathless. That song makes me smile. And "Till It Happens To You". That one is hot. I actually have that one on my Myspace. I can't wait to hear more from this lady.....

I'm excited about Dreamgirls. However my obsession with B is slowly AND surely fading away. Hm, the humble act is starting to crumble to me......

Ok. Why is it that everyone in the world seems to see these qualities in you, but the person that you actually WANT to see those qualities doesn't? When it comes out that I am single, I get a look of shock and terror and, "You don't have a boyfriend?!?!!? But you're so pretty and smart!" I promise if I hear that one more time, I'm gonna scream. That makes me feel worse. And its been happening a lot lately. I dunno...
I'm not complaining about being single. Not at all. I've met some really cool people that I probably would have never gone out with if I was in a relationship. But still. I dunno......

I've been in VA for over 6 months now. In May, I thought that I would be back in Alabama by now. I'm getting too comfortable here. This could be a problem...

Hastiness Cost me $200

I haven't written in a minute. I haven't been inspired to write anything. Perhaps something will come from me sitting down at the computer and just typing. Well, I did do something STUPID as HELL this weekend.

I got this habit from my friend (shout out to Toni) of talking on my cell in the shower. I guess I'm more impatient than I thought. When I want to do something, I want to do it then and there. So, my phone rang and I picked it up and talked on it while I was in the shower. Not the smartest move in the world. This I know. I've done it before without a problem. So, I get off the phone and get out of the shower. I pick up my phone and it has turned off. I try to turn it back on, and it won't. I finally get it back on, but the key pad doesn't work. This goes on the rest of the night. I finally realize that my phone is dead.

I wake up the next morning and go straight to T-mobile. I can't go without my phone. I have no insurance on my phone, am not eligible for an upgrade, and don't want to get another two year contract, so the guy walks me down to this little cell phone booth place to buy an unlocked phone. I do. I get a Motorola L6.
I hate it. I'm sitting in the house sick to my stomach about spending money on this phone. I then realize that my phone is not a year old yet and call T-Mobile. They tell me that they can send me a new one. CRAP! What am I gonna do with this L6 that I just bought? So I go back to the mall to take it back... no refunds. Shit.

I go home, mad as hell. So I put the phone on EBay to try and sell it. Later on that night, I go upstairs. I go in my room and the phone that is supposedly dead says, "insert SIM card". I do, and the bitch turns the fcuk on!!!! Now I have three freaking phones and am out 200 bucks!! WTF?!?!?
Moral to the story: Don't be hasty.